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I’m just tired. Putting my absolutely chaotic personal life to the side, I’m under an overwhelming amount of stress physically.

I have a cluster of life altering “idiopathic” and “primary” diagnoses that can only be treated with medication. Or so they say. All of them have gnarly side effects so I take pills for those too. I’m not tolerating any of it well; the pills or the diagnoses.

Through all of this I’m not sleeping, I can barely eat, some days I’m too sick to bathe myself or clean. I’m really trying to tough it out but I’m exhausted. My doctors say the only way to help is more medication.

I’m supposed to be getting help with mental health but these online virtual therapist haven’t worked out well for me. Honestly, I don’t think that would help. I’m not at the point where I need to check into a MH facility but I’m also not okay. I need to not be sick anymore. I need a break.

Anyway, I just wanted to say that. I’m grateful to be alive. I’m grateful to have access to healthcare. I’m just tired and I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

What techniques, schedules, resources did you use to stay on track and stay disciplined?

I’m about to finish my associates as the first person in my family to get a degree and I’m tired. Don’t get me wrong, I want to be highly educated too, I just don’t see how anyone can tolerate this lifestyle for too long.

I know it’s possible because I see so many beautiful ladies celebrating on here. It’s encouraging but makes me feel so bad for how hard I’m working to keep up.

Im being treated at the VA for a few conditions. This whole thing has been a painful and frustrating experience.

Fortunately, I’ve been able to see specialist out in the community who are doing a great job helping me. I’m still working on getting some of my records over to them, even though the VA says they have a system that makes them visible to outside providers.

I went to myhealthevet to print off what I could and I noticed that none of the records have the same diagnosis information anymore. None except the follow up from my pcm after the hospital admission.

I know they diagnosed me on paper because I had extensive testing done to validate the diagnosis. I had a lumbar puncture done twice during my stay and the most I see is a chart with numbers. Before, there was a whole copy and pasted type work up with reasoning and results. I also have the discharge paperwork that states what I was discharged for very clearly. The digital note says, “Discharged for headache”. The paperwork that I have in hand says that I was discharged for psudotumor on my brain.

Are they changing the notes?? The wording and notes are really important because they affect the paper trail to service connection.

[US-GA] I know it sounds like a leap but I cannot pinpoint what this smell is or where it’s coming from. I’m in a tiny 1br apartment.

I’m extremely clean, the only place that I don’t sweep, scrub and sanitize is the water closet. After I did my deep spring cleaning and still smelled it, I jimmied the water closet open but I don’t see anything. The smell is like rotten trash. It’s pervasive enough to be distracting.

What can I do to track it down? How would I even bring this up with my landlord?

My first thought was that some of them have nothing better to do but I came across someone with a full time job that enjoys being disruptive online. I wouldn’t have expected this seemingly well adjusted, relatively successful, grown man to get into it with random and I mean really into it. He would look into their profiles, curate jokes based on what he could find and even private message them if he didn’t get the response he was looking for.

I’m sure if any of us have posted enough on social media we’ve seen this. I want to know, what do these people get from rage baiting.

With the exception of the people who get paid to do so in bot farm and such.