I didn't choose to be muslim, but I can't leave?
So, I was born to muslim parents in a somewhat Islamic country. I've never really been that religious. Not once have I ever seen my parents pray, EVER. My family doesn't really do that. But even then they still bring up allah allah allah will help you blablabla its all up to allah. They dont even bother to rlly practice it but stay in it anyway. I feared hell and everything too just like them. Still didnt care enough though.
Everyone at school was religious with religious parents, (muslim) so i felt out of place. But I've always made it clear since i was 10-12 that i dont care about god. Didn't fast during Ramadan, and when people asked why, i said because its useless. My conclusion was that fasting for 30 days wasnt going to get me enough heaven points to make up for over a decade worth of not praying. That made people look at me all weird but it wasnt anything serious. Caught my brother talking shit to my sister about me not fasting and that made me not want to even more. (He doesnt even pray either)
Idk how to read the quran. Idk how to pray. They had mandatory classes for those in primary school but like i said, i did not care. None of that got into my brain. But honestly it was probably because i kept skipping those classes every chance i got. Wore the hijab to school everyday since those teachers loved telling 7 year old girls theyd burn in hell if they didnt, and it was also mandatory. but ive only worn it outside once, as i was going out with my primary school friends and didnt want to get ostracized even more than i already was.
Anyways, I've never really lived like a muslim, never wanted to either.
But I'm stuck with having islam written all over my legal documents because even if i tried to remove it I'd probably die before they even go over the papers. Or just get stuck in one of those camps where they dont let you leave unless you recite the shahada or whatever.
Thus everyone will continue applying muslim standards to me even when I couldn't care less about it. Islam sucks and so does this country. Being a born muslim is the worst thing ever idk why anyone in their right mind would convert to this. You can't be "born" with any religion its not like its bound by dna😐so why can't i remove it. Its so culty. UGHHH idk im so frustrated !!!!