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Every year I volunteer at the AFSP out of the darkness walk. In the past, we have taken donations for a pet costume contest entry to raise funds for the AFSP. This year, we want to do something different to hopefully bring in more donations. I considered a bake sale with homemade baked goods, but I won’t get the license from the state Department of health in time. I need something that is easy to plan, and will still interest people.

It takes place in September. It can be fall related or anything of the sorts, but I am out of ideas. I’m overwhelmed trying to think of something lol. It’s a small town so participation is usually fairly good but minimal compared to larger cities.

There are already silent auctions, shirt sales, and this year there is a raffle for a Harley motorcycle that someone donated. I am close friends with the walk coordinator, so I am hoping to help her raise as much as possible.

I randomly entered one day about a month ago and was notified Thursday of last week. I found the notification of my win in junk mail as I totally forgot about it with all the craziness at work.

Here is my dilemma: my wife and I have two kids, who we’re already taking on a small family beach trip in September. We’re debating on whether we want do to Disney next summer before my oldest starts kindergarten with these points covering a stay, OR celebrate our 10 year anniversary in Hawaii. We weren’t going to do anything big to celebrate, but it almost feels like we should now. 😅

I’m also very open to recommendations as I am not well travelled. I live in Indiana and have been to all the basic Midwest states, Myrtle beach, a couple Florida beaches, New York, Chicago and Utah (although this was a work trip).

I am thinking my body is telling me it’s time to quit.
Baby will be 5 months Sunday.

I am diagnosed with IGT & started out at 7oz per day. My highest day so far has been 18.4oz. I got a stomach bug about 1.5 months ago. My supply took a hit from that and went down to 15oz. Yesterday, I only made 13oz. I’m pumping 8x a day, eating my weight in calories, eating lots of protein, taking supplements, changing out pump parts. Everything.

I cannot increase my supply again. It’s like my body is really trying to tell me it’s time.

I feel SO guilty and cannot stop crying just thinking about it. I have given this my all and I’ve never been able to provide him with a full days worth of calories. It’s all I ever wanted. The hundreds of bags from insurance and the deep freeze I bought in preparation taunt me. How do I get past this guilt?

I will pay 500k bells and 50 NMTs for one of these!