u/UserUesrTTTT

Like okay I was reading something something some normie troon who I can only assume is a youngshit stealthoid complaining about trans women stereotypes and I thought about like I could freak her out by being all “send trooby pics” or something. Obviously I didn’t actually do that but the temptation to misogynistmax as a means of being more of a man is there.

Also vaguely related but I absolutely fucking loathe tranners my age or younger who like transitioned young and ended up going to college for some high paying in demand STEM field or something like actually hope you rope or get hatecrimed.

Yeah yeah not good things to say whatever fuck off back to doing absolutely nothing.

it has been MONTHS and I am still mad because I promised i would dedicate my life and continue posting on ttttrans and 4t4 even if I got famous or rich or passed or whatever and instead I get banned for being too based (I do not believe they banned me for not being on E, there are plenty of other “reppers” and even cisoids)

ANYWAYS HELLO LOSERS but then again youre not the ones worrying about which Gameboy provides best ratio of good games to lasting forever so fuck me I hope I kms BUT I still have to complete one big project and I have a fantastic insane high effort tran related idea that I probably will not actually do because I’m a talentless skill-less hack

So I did another MID BUST to some trans breast timelines and immediately afterwards felt that repulsion, disdain, and most importantly, complete lack of attraction. Like it just immediately clicked “how can these people do this to themselves this is fucking insane and for what?” So just how do I permanently get myself into that mindset without jerking off every thirty minutes?

Nearly found myself falling into the estrogen “as a treat” meme yesterday but god knows that’s a stupid idea and I don’t need another month of breast growth on the count when I can’t get it surgically removed.

I wouldn’t necessarily say I’m a repressing trans person because I don’t really believe I’m trans but where else am I gonna post. Looked at AskAGP but it seemed different. Anyways… do you think cold turkey quitting looking at or acknowledging anything trans related is a good idea? I’ll still talk to my trans friends cause they’re really all I have. Online mostly so don’t have to be physically presented with the possibility. That’s besides the point. Main things are like… transformation or gender porn, random trans YouTube recommendations, trans art memes etc. Main one I guess just the porn. Lol what have I been saying for the last like five years I said I’m a fetishist. ANYWAYS is this a good idea you think? Do I start jorking it to straight normie porn? Do I just chastemax and be a sad little man curled up in my bed? Sounds potentially peak. Oh my god shut up dont talk like a younger than you. Anyways trans trans trans should I just ignore all of it and pretend it’s like… not real? Or like… psyop myself into normie mindscape? “Oh yeah… them transgenders, like furries or uh, like people that get walked around on leashes.” You know like treat it as a one in a million weird freak thing that doesn’t really exist or matter in everyday life. Let me know experiences or opinions thankies.

As long as I can remember I've never really wanted to be masculine. I hated the idea of getting muscles, facial hair, body hair, getting taller, etc. I didn't think it would happen to me but eventually it did and now I don't know how to accept it. I spend 99% of my time inside and refuse to show my face because I feel ugly and repulsive. Every other day, I spend an hour shaving my entire body, only for it to grow back. Maybe its cause I'm scared of growing up? Maybe I wanted to stay a kid forever? I don't know. Obviously I can't really live like this so that's why I'm asking for advice. If you're a man who felt gross about being a man, how did you overcome it? Working out? Being more masculine? Reading? Thanks.