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I wouldn’t necessarily say I’m a repressing trans person because I don’t really believe I’m trans but where else am I gonna post. Looked at AskAGP but it seemed different. Anyways… do you think cold turkey quitting looking at or acknowledging anything trans related is a good idea? I’ll still talk to my trans friends cause they’re really all I have. Online mostly so don’t have to be physically presented with the possibility. That’s besides the point. Main things are like… transformation or gender porn, random trans YouTube recommendations, trans art memes etc. Main one I guess just the porn. Lol what have I been saying for the last like five years I said I’m a fetishist. ANYWAYS is this a good idea you think? Do I start jorking it to straight normie porn? Do I just chastemax and be a sad little man curled up in my bed? Sounds potentially peak. Oh my god shut up dont talk like a younger than you. Anyways trans trans trans should I just ignore all of it and pretend it’s like… not real? Or like… psyop myself into normie mindscape? “Oh yeah… them transgenders, like furries or uh, like people that get walked around on leashes.” You know like treat it as a one in a million weird freak thing that doesn’t really exist or matter in everyday life. Let me know experiences or opinions thankies.

As long as I can remember I've never really wanted to be masculine. I hated the idea of getting muscles, facial hair, body hair, getting taller, etc. I didn't think it would happen to me but eventually it did and now I don't know how to accept it. I spend 99% of my time inside and refuse to show my face because I feel ugly and repulsive. Every other day, I spend an hour shaving my entire body, only for it to grow back. Maybe its cause I'm scared of growing up? Maybe I wanted to stay a kid forever? I don't know. Obviously I can't really live like this so that's why I'm asking for advice. If you're a man who felt gross about being a man, how did you overcome it? Working out? Being more masculine? Reading? Thanks.