u/Valkaine_

I am 2 years and 11 months on hormones

- Been on injections since month 1, E always above 150pg/ml

- T always below 40ng/DL

- on and off Prog, longest was 7 months, 100-200mg taken rectally

I still can't pass even when trying my hardest including with voice and everything else. My regimen I've tried has been roughly 7 times changes and I haven't seen changes since about 6 no this past starting HRT. I've been tested for all sorts of thyroid disorders and hormone issues and we can't find out why I'm not seeing changes. I just want to be a girl so fucking bad I hate it.

Please feel free to join our discord!

Free Programs:

> Beginner Intro Program 1.2:

[Here!]

> Feminizing-Focus for Beginners 2.0:

[Here!] + With a tracking spreadsheet, courtesy u/amalicioussalad

> Masculinization for Beginners 1.0

[Here!]

> Diet 101

[Here!]

What am I supposed to do to make my situation right?

I live in a building without AC, and a single window for my entire apartment. Without fail, within half an hour, someone is smoking cigarettes, meth, or setting a literal fire in the alleyway besides my apartment.

I've yelled at people to cut it out, I've called the non-emergency line, I've tried talking directly despite the rather unsafe proposition that it is, and yet three years into living here and never once has it ever stopped. I am devastated every time there is a heat wave because I am forced to swelter inside my 8th-floor apartment where all the heat rises. I don't know what to do and I lose my mind. 5 in the morning, trying to get cold air into the apartment so we can enjoy the morning? Meth. 2 in the afternoon trying to beat the heat? smoke. 10pm at night and wanting fresh air to sleep? A literal campfire being started. The fire dept has already pulled out someone who set the greenery on fire in my alleyway, and all their belongings burned, and the only thing I could really care about was the fact that it smelled like smoke for a week when I tried to get any kind of air inside my apartment.

I'm so lost on how to actually improve this because I cannot afford moving to some other apartment, and I just am so lost. How do I even improve this? I want to have empathy and help the homeless but it gets harder and harder to have patience when my basics like sleep and even spending an afternoon in my apartment are disrupted

I am so infatuated with my gock! Gock gock gock! Girls with cocks are like angels with wings, without them, they fall from grace! My gock makes women fall to their knees before me, don't you know its amazing?????

Chaser language? What's that? No I'd never fall for online circles that ignore the chaser language that creeps into terminally online transfem spaces, I am embracing my femininity! My gock is part of me and I LOVE OTHER GIRLS GOCKS! PLEASE TALK ABOUT YOUR GOCK! SHOW ME YOUR GOCK PLEASE IM DESPERATE!!! 1!!23!!1!1!2!1!1!!1

/uj I can handle girl-dick/cock but making a portmanteau that is near exclusively used by chasers popular in transfem meme spaces, every single trans inclusive wlw space, and even some people I've met IRL using it? Its so gross. Its almost as bad as when I had a grown ass cis woman refer to my throat as a "ma'adam's apple" and I wanted to scream.

/RJ PLEASE take this gock my identity revolves around infantilization, you can call it a princess wand if you like too :)