u/Venom2300

10th class m corona aa gya...12th khrb hui marks kam aaye ....fir CUET UG diya, btech nhi mila- DU se bsc hons(CS) WORST DECISION ki 4year ki....na internship mili na job mili puri graduation me, Skills develop ki taki job mil jaaye...but koi company bsc nhi leti h or na hi koi referral...at the end graduation me 5.5 CGPA score ki (very low). Job koi scope nhi dikha toh GATE ki tyri start ki....but ab GATE krne se bhi koi fayda nhi kyu ki koi college 5.5 CGPA nhi le rha. Gharwalo ko bhi fikr nhi hai koi na haal chal puchte hai na kuch...tbyt khrb hai already uska tk nhi puchte...chota bhai bhi sath rehta hai- khair usse toh 1 glass paani tk ki bhi umeed nhi h. Abhi m library se wapis aaya aaj raat tbyt khrb thi upar se ye sab yaad aa rha h...now ab mujhe suicide thoughts aa rhe h. Am i going into depression? GATE ki tyri se acche se kr rha hu but college hi nhi milega toh kya fayda. Msc krke koi fayda bhi nhi h😭😭. I want to die i can't bear this anymore. I want to cry but aansu nhi aate h. My life is fucked.

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I'm a 24M from Delhi, currently going through a rough breakup. It's been difficult, and I realized I don't really have anyone I can open up to anymore. I'm not looking to date or meet up—I'd just appreciate having someone to talk to, even if it's only over calls or chats, without being judged.

I mentioned female friends because I feel women often have a different perspective on heartbreak and emotional struggles, and I think that could genuinely help me navigate this phase. That said, if anyone is kind enough to listen or share their own experience, I'd be grateful regardless.

A little about me: I'm 6 ft tall, have curly hair, enjoy writing poetry, and I'm from Delhi. Mentioning this only because I've noticed people often ask for a bit about the person behind the post.

And yes, before anyone asks—I don't really have friends to lean on anymore, which is why I'm posting here.

If you've been through something similar or just don't mind listening, feel free to reach out. Thank you.