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My narc ex pulled insane crap on me last year after 5 years of COMPLETE AND UTTER DEVOTION TO HIM! All I got was B.S. lies to his police friends, an injunction (he fabricated the video to say I violated). The police broke 4 bones in my foot keeping it slammed in the door for 10 minutes while calmly speaking with him as he smirked at me writhing in pain (the damage is now permanent and inoperable!) My case was dragged out for OVER A YEAR! I HAVE PHOTO EVIDENCE OF HIM PHYSICALLY ABUSING ME, BUT because I am a 53 yof and he's a 69 Yom republican and less than 50% owner of a crappie business HE IS CONSIDERED THE VICTIM? I've overcome a heroin/Crack cocaine addiction, growing up without a father with an alcoholic and abusive mother. Shipped away at 12 because she "wanted a life" now,my family won't speak with me and I am PETRIFIED TO LEAVE MY OWN HOME BECAUSE MY EX MANUFACTURES INCIDENTS AND I AM HELPLESS! TO TOP IT OFF, I haven't contacted him in over a year, the courts fired 6 prosecutors but now after an entire year they're willing to believe his lies (he committed perjury) he has a lengthy violence record, and I have nothing but I get 12 months of probation, today???? Not to mention that my doctor just found spots on my lungs and I have no clue what, if any future I even have left! What am I supposed to do? I lost my beloved husband in 2020 and this Ass manipulated his way into my life! Why am I left with nothing? I just want to know?

I'm a 53yof in South Palm Beach County and I have been looking for some true wiccan or pagan communities, even just a few like-minded people who want to gather for Samhain and for other festivities, tea, or just conversation. I moved here years ago from northern California and I have NEVER had such difficulty finding true community. Any thoughts? I tried coven finder and Facebook, nothing.

I've made war water before. Always told to bury it or throw away far from my home. Thoughts??

I've made war water before. Always told to bury it or throw away far from my home. Thoughts??

Confused why my post was removed when I have been raised by a malignant narcissist and am now stuck dealing with the insanity my sociopathic narcissistic ex-boyfriend of five years is doing to me. Feeling truly helpless now.