u/VirtuousVulva

I've been sick with DAWtism for years and have been diagnosed terminally ill. it's stage 5. I'm not sure how much longer i have to live, but is there a cure? If not, how do i live out my last days?

I was directed by staff to set up camp next to a nice dude. Everyone got along, and he says his family is coming the next day. That's cool. Next day comes and I find out his family is his wife and two kids. Fuck that. I've worked too hard and spent too much money for them to ruin my festival experience. If I want to have butt-naked freaky circus sex, then I will. They had family camping specifically for that.

All of the following nights, every partner I had was very loud and vocal. Nothing but loud claps, moans, and dirty talk. Idgaf.

He was still cool with me and all and we didn't even mention it, but I felt like he was sort of an AH for putting me in this sensitive moral predicament.

AITAH?

It's a phenomenon when you have a specific flavor of a drink and either dislike it or think it's mid, then it "grows" on you and then you suddenly love it. This happened to me with Ghost Sour Strips flavor.

The opposite happens too, where i love a flavor initially, but then i might have too much of it and it gets kinda meh. I'm more interested in the former scenario, because the latter can happen with anything you do too much of.

It's a phenomenon when you have a specific flavor of a drink and either dislike it or think it's mid, then it "grows" on you and then you suddenly love it. This happened to me with Ghost Sour Strips flavor.

The opposite happens too, where i love a flavor initially, but then i might have too much of it and it gets kinda meh. I'm more interested in the former scenario, because the latter can happen with anything you do too much of.

Due to my life style, it is only best for me to drink energy drinks on the weekends (usually just one saturday and one sunday). I currently have 100+ drinks on deck because i'm stashing my favorite flavors. I still look inside every 7-11 or nutrition shop i pass just to see what flavors they have and i'm mentally fixated on it. I know i'm slightly addicted to them, so because i do not physically indulge in them, i do mentally (whether it be stashing or browsing this sub).

This is great for my tolerance and health though, but i also do the same thing with junk food. I buy and stash, but never really indulge until the moment i feel is right (which could be weeks or months from when i buy them).

Is there a way to limit this behavior? I live a pretty restrictive lifestyle when it comes to substances and this may be a coping behavior because i'm an actual recovered drug addict, but it works for me so far.

The external noise is a reminder to pay attention internally for me. When it gets too quiet, my mind wanders and I have forgetfulness (still in the beginning stages, but I've been to later stages before).

For example, when my roommate makes a loud noise, I remember to pay attention to my breath.

This dude made a whole bet with his ego and then wanna retreat but still act high and mighty when the bet is due. He deflects by saying it's "dumb sht", yet that's the "dumb sht" that YOU fkn said and BET on, SIR!

I hate people that can't admit when they're wrong man.

After several bad decisions in life and trying to get back on track in the last 10 years without avail, it's over. I cannot see myself getting into a legitimate career where i can actually survive. The best I can do is maintain my current job and continue to have roommates well into old age, until i'm too old to work and then just become homeless and live on the street on a skid row among junkies and maybe then i'll go back to my old vices and then just die......or maybe that'll all happen much sooner before i even get old.

I'm tired. I take some blame for not being able to thrive in this counterintuitive system. It's just survival of the fittest and it's not personal, but this world isn't meant for me. Thousands of people die in fucked up ways every single day. No one is special, and these systems really don't HAVE to serve us. It's just the way it is.

That shit was phenomenal, but it was at 5pm so not many people were there. It was one of the best sets all weekend and I don't hear anyone talking about it!!!!!

I know they're a duo, but when I see videos of recent performances, it's just one person. I know they're breaking up. What's the story and who will I be seeing at lightning in a bottle if I see them/ him???

......but you understand that's a possibility given no one ever knows when or how they're gonna die, right? That's why i hate this quote so much, because i'd think even the dumbest person knows this, yet they still want to entertain the possible outcome.

The specific word, "should", in that sentence triggers me for some reason. It just goes back to idealism vs. realism. We SHOULD all have empathy for one another. We SHOULD have a functional government that actually cares about its citizens. Profit SHOULD not precede humanity.......yet, do you know where the fuck we are?

I know there are a lot of possibilities that CAN happen in life, so maybe i'm looking at this wrong? I genuinely want another perspective that shows me flaws in my thinking.

I'm going to a festival and need a speaker that is loud, clear, great bass, dust-resistant (water is optional), and good battery life.

I am doing public fitness routines at a dusty outdoors festival. I'd prefer not to spend more than $400.

I'd prefer it to be portable, but I'm not sure how loud those portable handheld ones could get for what I need.

Even better if u can manually change the EQ.

We have a strict no reselling policy listed directly on our website. We'd prefer if you bought directly from us at thebaklavaca.com. See you in court, asshole!

I just got tired of riding the up and down energy wave when I can just workout, eat clean, and consistently be a mad man naturally. It ends up working out really well. I don't shun people who indulge, because I'm also living through them!