He erased me from his life and it just hurts
So for context: me and my ex husband were together for 8 years. We have a 2 year old baby together. 3 months ago I found out he had been cheating at least since December. I found everything by myself because he was never honest with me. During this time he broke up with me, then came back only to end things for good in April.
He immediately started a relationship with his AP and one month later she was around my kid.
When we broke up I believed he thought we could be really good at coparenting and even do things “a family”. But I just can’t do it…I became super distant and cold towards him because I’m so hurt.
I only talk the minimum about our child and through messages. I just can’t stand being in his presence.
Now he just barely responds to my messages and seems as if he just erased me from his life like the last 8 years never existed.
He kept our house and lives there (I believe she stays with him a lot). We have 50/50 shared custody so it just feels like he stole half of my time with my baby.
I know distance will be the best for my healing process but I can’t help but reminiscing on the old times and question how he could just move foward…it’s just so hard.
3 months into this and I just don’t know when things will get better. I just want to feel a little happiness again but right now that seems impossible.
Any advice?