u/VladFreimann

Hi! I'm 30M, diagnosed with AuDHD in December 2025.

My whole life has been ups and downs, and I became quite good at adapting to life, until I became a father of twins, a son and a daughter, 4 years ago.

Since then my whole life became a heavy survival. Getting so tired at home on weekends that I can't work in the first days of the week. Then getting in the flow maybe on Wednesday/Thursday and then the week ends. Then work amount becomes so heavy that with all the stress for money and deadlines my hyperfocus activates. Then I work for 12-17 hours per day, not seeing my family and neglecting household duties.

Then I get extremely tired, on top of daughter's parasomnia (almost every night she's screaming, talking or crying at night), and take 1-3 days semi-off, doing only what's most necessary and delaying all the projects possible.

Money that I earn aren't enough to sustain our family so my mom helps sometimes, but it all happens with a heavy feeling of guilt.

We're living in a 2-room apartment (bedroom now is for kids, wife and me sleep in a living room).

I imagined my life at 30yo to be very different. I had a consistent career and money growth until 2023, since then it all goes downhill.

I work as a freelance music producer and tried so many things. I think I have pretty good skills but the market in my part of the world now is suffering (I'm from Belarus).

Previously, when I didn't have kids, I launched a YouTube channel and got it to 15k subs. It helped me raise my prices and I was very excited about all of that. However, it took MUCH more work than expected because of AuDHD as I see now, and now I hardly do work to close the bills on time. And I don't have energy to show my work and create content consistently. It became more and more rare. And I don't get as many new leads as before.

Wife is not satisfied, nobody in my family acts supportively except for my mom (and she doesn't have a lot of money, and I always feel she's very upset about me at these moments).

My father is successful financially, but he has a second wife and two kids and never seemed to emotionally connect with me or express any empathy that I felt (and I'm very sensitive to other people's feelings).

Yesterday my wife asked me how I see the future. And honestly I really don't see a way out. It's just an everyday struggle to make ends meet and complete as much projects ASAP.

Video games are the only thing that heals me during these times. Another moment when I was heavily addicted to games was when my parents divorces. I needed to escape reality for mental healing. Music became another one during teenage years, and it got me where I am.

But sales, price negotiations, client communication, their expectations and masking during all of that is what drains me SO MUCH. And every coach on the market says I need to do more of it what drains me... I tried hiring assistants to help me with that, risking money and losing it a few times, growing my debt then slowly getting out of it... It doesn't seems to work either...

I really don't know what else should I try. I need to get out of debt, mostly money that my father gave me to fund a music business coach (it didn't go well because I burnt out so many times doing tasks that I hate, and I can't do it consistently without seeing results).

When I share all that with my wife or parents, it always gets worse. It's better for me not to share it anymore. Yesterday my wife said that nobody will help me except for myself...

Hi, I just want to share my emotions because I didn’t expect that such a touching storyline would be built between Max, Hope and Glory.

I truly believe it’s a masterpiece because even though Max and Hope’s relationships were building step by step, it didn’t seem that way until he rescued her from slavery and everything that went further.

One of the most touching love stories I remember in gaming.
So sad and bittersweet… I was thinking immediately: what are you doing Max? Why are you leaving girls alone at this dangerous moment? If he took them with him they’d be alive.

And when the Chumbucket dies, and the first car returns to Max… Damn, that hit even harder.

Now 100% is waiting for me! Playing the game on a Steam Deck was so perfect. Both handheld and sometimes docked in 1080p.

Thank you Avalanche Studios!!! It’s a definitely underrated masterpiece. Especially now it’s easier to see.

https://preview.redd.it/21pjx43wfh3h1.png?width=1164&format=png&auto=webp&s=ae565a5ec7918518bbee301aaff0bea98e538f19

It's my first time ever pledging on Kickstarter. Wish you luck and very excited for the release. Actually didn't pre-order anything in my life before, being a gamer for 18 years.

But my heart belongs to you, OnceLost Games. If I could, I'd even pledge $10000 when it was possible.

The only new game which I plan to buy in 2026 at release except The Wayward Realms is GTA 6 haha.

Crimson Desert or some other games will wait for me until they're patched and updated for a few years. As I tend to be a patient gamer.

But Daggerfall is one of my favorite games ever, so I'd love to participate in giving feedback playing Early Access.

All the news will from now on come to my email, right?

Hi! I have a Steam Deck that I love very much and also an iPhone 14 Pro Max with a Backbone One controller.

Sometimes I’d love to shake things up and play something on my phone.

I successfully completed Bully 100% with this mobile setup and it was amazing experience.

But for a ton of games I can’t justify playing them connecting Backbone compared to just turning on my Steam Deck.

Would love to get your recommendations either of exclusive mobile games that aren’t available for the Steam Deck, and work well with a controller.

Or if the game is available to play on the Steam Deck, mobile experience with it feels better for you.

Thanks in advance!