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I struggled with sh for about 6 years I’m not ashamed of what I did because it did save me in a way. I’ve gotten comfortable going out in short sleeves but I do still get stares and people asking “what happened” as if you can’t tell what I did… it’s just dumb. Anyways I’m a year and 2 months clean as of now and it’s going to stay that way. I’m turning 19 this June aka I’m at an age where I’m almost a full on adult. I don’t like having to feel trapped in my own body. I’ve considered tattoos but idk how they’d even work with my scars since they go in various directions. (That’s where I messed up ngl) I’ve also considered those tattoos that get done on stretch marks where they make the scars match your skin tone. Most of mine already match but my skin has been tearing on my thighs over time. Not sure why could be when I shave? Anyways my point is what can I do? I lwk messed myself up if imma be honest. Again I’m not ashamed but I’d like to be able to wear what I want during the summer without having to hide everything and limit myself. I can’t even go to the beach or wear and swimsuit. I can’t wear dresses without tights nor can I wear cute shorts and skirts. I just wish people could understand but I know it’s a sensitive topic and I don’t feel professional looking like this nor do I feel clean.

I love my scars with all my heart and I love being reminded that I’m still here but I’d like to feel free at some point.

I struggled with sh for about 6 years I’m not ashamed of what I did because it did save me in a way. I’ve gotten comfortable going out in short sleeves but I do still get stares and people asking “what happened” as if you can’t tell what I did… it’s just dumb. Anyways I’m a year and 2 months clean as of now and it’s going to stay that way. I’m turning 19 this June aka I’m at an age where I’m almost a full on adult. I don’t like having to feel trapped in my own body. I’ve considered tattoos but idk how they’d even work with my scars since they go in various directions. (That’s where I messed up ngl) I’ve also considered those tattoos that get done on stretch marks where they make the scars match your skin tone. Most of mine already match but my skin has been tearing on my thighs over time. Not sure why, could be when I shave? Anyways my point is what can I do? I lwk messed myself up if imma be honest. Again I’m not ashamed but I’d like to be able to wear what I want during the summer without having to hide everything and limit myself. I can’t even go to the beach or wear and swimsuit. I can’t wear dresses without tights nor can I wear cute shorts and skirts. I just wish people could understand but I know it’s a sensitive topic and I don’t feel professional looking like this nor do I feel clean.

I love my scars with all my heart and I love being reminded that I’m still here but I’d like to feel free at some point.

(She typed this) I got both of my tragus piercings done in September of 2025. They’ve both given me some troubles but overall the one on my right side is okay just slight irritation. However this one healed okay no irritation bump or anything. But I keep having this bump form on the side on my face next to the piercing. It goes away and comes back randomly, but this time it looks bruised and it always hurts whenever I slightly touch that part or even tap my face while I do skincare. What’s wrong with it and why do I have that bump but not on the other piercing? On the other side it feels super flat. I’m sorry if I explained this bad but I have no idea what it is or what to do? Is it rejecting or infected?

Wondering if you guys could tell me about myself. I’m turning 19 in June.. anything happening at that time?