I can’t fill the void in my heart Gege has created by writing these characters. I read a lot of BL manhwas, but since SatoSugu plagued my brain I am unable to enjoy my usual gay content.
So please, if you are like me, tell me your recommendations and what you cope with.
I feel like this is purely psychological, although I am experiencing what probably is some physical withdrawal symptoms, this week sucked. I genuinely feel like that nice feeling of nicotine buzz is gonna solve all my problems albeit for a few minutes. I started bargaining with myself that one cigarette is not so bad, that it doesn’t mean I completely failed, that I didn’t smoke terribly much to begin with…
Yesterday I got the pleasure of having a glass of wine, and I somehow pulled all my will in and despite the altered state succeeded in avoiding smoking, and now I wake up and I want at least a few inhales of that cigarette so, so, so bad.
Someone please smack some sense into me, I feel like I am losing it
2nd and 3rd pictures with fem makeup because as long as I don’t pass I might as well. First picture I did a bit of dark eyeshadow in the corners of my eyes and darkened my brows which from the 3/4 angle I think looks quite masculine.
I have a thing for keeping my hair long no matter what (took forever to grow it out) and I fear my facial features will never be enough without some insane hair work to make me pass even when I start T. Any thoughts?