u/Weekly-Astronaut-632

Hi I was looking at ESA and PIP and they both have the WCA50 form would I need to get ESA first I'm confused or should I go for pip then ESA would get done automatically

Hey, I'm Maddy, MtF, uh I’m about 1.5 years into HRT and looking for advise. I’m struggling quite a lot with dysphoria at my hands, feet, body hair, facial hair but especially around my chest. I’ve rapidly lost some weight recently which I think has made things feel much worse, and I’ve been finding it hard not to fixate on how small my breasts as they are also just too pointy as well.

I’ve also noticed I keep thinking about what my ex used to say about me not having much there compared to her. I didn't say anything at the time due to never wanting to start conflict but it’s been sticking in my head recently and making the dysphoria worse.

I also struggle quite a bit with getting mentally stuck on one thing and finding it hard to shift my attention away from it when dysphoria spikes. At the moment I’m quite low on energy and basic self care tasks can be difficult to maintain consistently, which makes dealing with dysphoria feel harder. I don't have any money for laser/electro and it would be too much of a mental strain for me to shave. I get I pass sometimes but being in a all right area when everyone is aware of who you are and were.. isn't fun.

Right now it just feels like a lot on top of everything else and I was wondering if anyone has any coping methods that have helped them with dysphoria and especially when your brain gets stuck focusing on that one area and won’t let go and onto other things. sending love and kindness, Thanks