u/WerewolfMean6721

I’m a mom of three kids, all under the age of five, and I’ve genuinely never felt more alone in my life.

I have a 3 month old, and lately I feel like an outsider in my own home. My husband works seven days a week (by choice, it seems), while I’m home taking care of the kids 24/7. He even gets to golf during work hours, but I can’t remember the last time I went anywhere by myself. I can’t even run to the store without bringing at least one of the kids with me.

I’m not looking for people to tell me to leave my husband or judge my relationship. I just really need to vent and hear from other moms who have been through this.

Does this loneliness ever end? Does it ever start to feel like you’re your own person again? Because right now, I just want to feel normal, and honestly, it feels like that day is never going to come.

Me (26F), husband (26M).

We’ve been together for 10 years and have 3 kids.

Back in October 2025, when I was 6 months pregnant, I had a gut feeling and checked his phone. I found out he had been sending my nudes to one of our close friends and also sending them to random men on Reddit and Sessions.

I stayed. I know people will have opinions on that, and I fully take accountability for choosing to stay. I wanted my family so badly, and after 10 years together I wanted to believe we could work through it. We started trying to rebuild and for a while I was finally starting to trust him again.

Then in March, two weeks before I gave birth to our third baby, I found nudes that weren’t mine and selfies of other women on his phone.

When I confronted him, it turned into “I feel like such a failure” and then “it’s an addiction.” He also claimed he never masturbated to any of it and that he was “just scrolling through it” like TikTok or YouTube shorts.

Again, I stayed. because I wanted us to work so badly. But I also knew deep down I was asking someone to change who kept proving he wasn’t going to.

Then 4 days ago I found out he was back on Reddit and Sessions looking at naked women again.

And honestly… I feel done.

I’m a stay-at-home mom and I don’t really have a village nearby, which makes this feel even scarier. But I also know I don’t deserve to keep getting betrayed like this, and my kids don’t deserve a mom constantly carrying this pain either.

I think I’m just venting because I feel hurt, angry, embarrassed, and exhausted all at once.

I wanted my marriage to work more than anything. But I’m tired of rebuilding trust just to watch it get broken again.

I know it was my choice to stay and i’m very embarrassed by this. i just have no one to vent too.