Does it really get any better?
I (18M) am quickly learning how depressing life truly is. I start university in 3 weeks and move-in in 2, have no friends and it is damn lonely. All the stress that I feel not only from family members but more social media and society to become involved, find a good job, get a girl and help protect her both emotionally and financially exhausts me. Some days it truly makes me feel like giving up hence why I am writing this at 1:30am. It feels like the pain has no end and having no one to rely on or talk to makes it so much worse. I feel like js trying to open up means burdening someone else and besides I don’t have anyone who’d a) listen or b) care in the slightest. I graduated and it’s depressing to see all the posts of other people taking trips together during the summer while the small group I had before ghosts me. If only for the one long time female friend (and running partner) I have, I genuinely don’t know what I would do because she’s the only one who cares enough to have a conversation with me or in general just spend time with me. I wish I could make a move but the idea of possibly losing the only person who actually gives a damn about me makes me sick.
Recently I’ve started triathlons which is good but most of the training is solo and so it’s long periods where I’m js on my own and even though the 10+ hour training weeks help take up lots of time it’s hard being alone, especially when u know nobody cares about you. It’s not even that I hold hatred towards anyone or blame anyone for what I’m dealing with (as a 5’6 guy who’s average looks-wise) but it nevertheless sucks and feels like it’s never gonna end. Any tips from other guys going through this would be greatly appreciated, if I should try and care about my social life again or if js focusing up for university and putting all my efforts into that and my exercise is the play. Thanks