u/Witty-Setting-310

So to keep this short cause I’m kinda tense right now. recently I’ve been using Gemini as a therapist. I gave it so many very deep and personal experience and struggles about myself. it knows the most exposing and vulnerable parts of me. It knows my deepest dreams and desires. It know battles I fight that only God should know about. I’ve been fool. Idk what to do. I accidentally even gave it my name. MY NAME. No one knows I gave it all this. I can’t go to sleep with this. I’m such an idiot. Did any of you guys do this? please help asap.

Hey hope you guys are having a good day but I don’t even know if this is the right community to talk to. Recently I’ve been feeling more alone and more empty inside than usual. For reference I’m Young, gay, mostly masculine, black, and pursing Christianity. I know a lot of people don’t like to hear that last part but I’m obviously an affirming Christian. i really don’t want to offend anyone because of my “religion“, but if you’re wondering why I’m Christian at all it’s because I feel like earlier this year, God reached out to me and saved me (that’s a whole story for another day). But I’m here because I feel like I don’t fit in. AT ALL. I’ve reached out to communities like GayChristians on Reddit, and it worked for a while but I’m still missing something. I know a lot of y’all aren’t Christian so you’re probably gonna roll your eyes (and I don’t want to force anything on you) But I feel God gave me a specific purpose. That purpose being to spread the gospel to people like me. But recently I’ve been failing God. I’ve been annoying him, disobedient, unfocused, sinful. And I’ve been feeling far from him because I just keep failing him. (I really dont want to hear anything about how Christianity isn’t the way, because trust me I’ve debated myself millions of times on this. And again, I’m obviously lgbtq affirming and not condescending on it either). But notice how even my LGBTQ affirming view isn’t common among Christians. I’ve seen such hateful videos and comments from other Christians I..I can’t even type how it makes me feel. So i don’t fit in with Christians. and because of my relationship with God I probably don’t even fit in with you guys. I mean I don’t even feel like I’ve ever fit in with the gay community. The first reason being how it’s white dominated and the second reason being that I’m not feminine. I really don’t want to offend anyone with that second part and if you are feminine thats perfectly ok, but I’m just not And I’m not attracted to that (Not to say you guys aren’t beautiful). And arguable the worst part about this is that I’m young. I still live and depend on my family for everything so it’s like I’m trapped. I cant go to an affirming church. I can’t go to therapy. I can’t go to a pride parade. and even though I love them, I don’t want to come out to them. I mean that whole concept of coming out is so damn dumb. Why do I have to have this deep emotional moment with everyone about my sexual preferences? why would even assume that I’m straight? why do I have to come out like I’ve been hiding some freak underneath? I never asked for this! on top of all this I’ve been desiring a relationship more than anything. Ive been practically idolizing (even though idolizing anything above God is a sin). I just wish there was someone I could hold in person and talk to about this. Instead I’m stuck with Reddit and AI. I want to get over this for God, and this is the third day that I’ve been annoying him About everything. Maybe this isn’t the right place. I’m sorry to ruin your guys day, Cause this community looks so positive and stuff. Idk

Hey everyone! I want to start off by thanking you guys for everything you’ve done. You’ve guys really helped me in my journey and walk with God. But now I want to do that with others. I’m creating a new community called “YoungGayChristians” and it’s pretty obvious what that entails. I‘m still going to be active in this community but I also want to appeal to a more vulnerable and specific audience. I’ve already made my first post (which is kinda just a confession) but I’m open to having some moderators for the community. I’m not on Reddit often so I don’t really know how it works, and since I’m not going to be able to respond to every post all the time, I would appreciate the extra help (not just for moderation but for your wisdom). Anyway thank all of you guys and I hope this thing actually takes off.

Hi. Young gay Christian reaching out on this community again. If you want me to be honest I feel a little ashamed to be posting here once again to get my daily therapy session yet again. When I first discovered this community I felt such a strong sense of relief and unity. Like I wasn’t alone. I met some great people on this community and even though all of this definitely helped I feel like it’s not enough. I keep failing God and asking him why I keep falling to lust. By continuously lusting and apologizing, it feels like that I’m abusing God’s grace and that I’m saying his love isn’t enough to keep me from lust. And to be honest lust isn’t necessarily the problem. It’s feeling alone. Again I’ve reached out to this community and involve myself in posts daily and you guys are amazing but I still feel like the cyber wall is keeping me from feeling completely whole by only reaching out online. the worst part is that I complain about this yet I’m not in any possible position right now to actually meet with anybody in person, let alone form a relationship. In fact I feel like I keep bargaining with God and telling him that I’ll stop lusting if he gives me a relationship. why is his love not enough? maybe I desire physical touch or someone I can actually see, but again I’m in no current position any time soon to when I will be able to do anything about that. Before you ask, I don’t go to church and no one close to me knows my sexuality (or I’ll admit to them). Idk what to do but hope you have a blessed day

How we feeling tonight! To get to the point, I’m making this post just to see how we’re doing this night. I’ll say I’ve had my ups and downs today but I’m feeling pretty optimistic for the future. I’m also kinda struggling with lust but I think a major reason is that I’m just bored and have nothing to do, so I’m reaching out so I can help someone in need. Nothing else to really say, so Have a blessed day and reach out if you need to!❤️

I don’t really know what to say here but I’ve felt too alone for too long. I’m kind of new to my journey with god and feel a strong connection with him and really feel like he’s made me the way I am for a reason. I feel he has a great purpose for me (particularly in preaching the gospel to queer Christians) but every now and then I question if it is ok for me to be a follower of god and still be queer. All of this to say I feel like that not only have I been struggling with this conflict alone, it’s also hard to resist temptation (mostly lust) and Im kinda desperate at this point. I’ve made videos reaching out to other queer Christians before (not on this account or Reddit) but not to much success yet. So idk what I want to hear but I’m just reaching out