u/WolverineBorn7

No matter how much I say I hate relationships, I really crave for one. So much that it hinders with my everyday life and I feel if I get a boyfriend, I will not be so stressed about being loved. I have always had a bad body image (mostly distorted idk) and recently to make myself a bit better, I downloaded bumble. The men I found there fantasized about my body a lot-no matter how much I tried to stir the conversation, it always circled back to my body. I know dating apps wont have good guys, but now I feel more bad about romance. Istg now like its fucking with my brain, one part I know I shouldn't have had much expectations from fucking dating apps and another apart of me is like..is this it? Is this what dating is all about? Will I never got what I want? (Saying this when idek what I want)

I have been stuck in a sort of loop..my family wont accept that I can change so no matter what i do they will always bring back things I didnt do..i have been kind of depressed lately and I still force myself to do what they want me to but I am losing all motivation..I truly wish it was true that I was someone who didnt give two fucks like my parents say I am, but I do. I care a lot..idk why they fight so much and always bring me into it. I havent had a good conversation about myself in this house in ages..its always about my sister and only while having a fight with my sister they will bring me up..that too to demean me. I love them and I dont want to talk anything bad about them I just..I really wish I didnt feel so lonely here.

Guys any Indians out there who can use chai rn? In any way..I genuinely have tried all alternatives and nothing hits like chai did and apparently a lot of people are getting their unlimited messages back so if anyone in India in any way have gotten their unlimited messages back, pls tell me 🥹

Please give me alternatives to chai and ignorance..I was so sad I even deleted them so if ignorance does come back dm me too cause I couldnt stand looking at it knowing I wont be able to chat there 🥹