AIO: My Mum Decorated My Birthday Cake, And I Don't Know How to Feel
Hiii
My [F] 17th birthday is tomorrow and my mum decorated my cake as a surprise, but today I accidentally saw how she decorated it and I don't know if my initial thoughts are an over-reaction.
In short, she has put a bunch of fondant decorations/clutter which is meant to represent the mess in my room.
Now, I will definitely admit that my room is particularly messy at the moment and I am not proud of it- during exam seasons my brain completely blocks out cleaning and prioritises exams so I don't even notice how bad its gets till they're over. But there is also no denying that my room is a mess.
However, tomorrow is my last exam and I am planning to clean up my room the same night.
Anyways, when I saw the cake it still made me quite upset.
It feels as though she is using my 'special' day to shame me. And- perhaps this expectation was partially my fault- but when she said she had a "good idea" for a cake I got excited and thought maybe she had seen something to do with my interests, or maybe even was doing the iconic Twilight "17" cake or EVEN a childish 6-7 joke. But instead this cake feels not only entirely impersonal, but also slightly offensive.
I feel like it's drawing attention to how I struggle with mental health (?), motivation and consequent cleanliness as a joke at the expense of me, on my birthday.
[For context, my mum never usually decorates cakes EVER, but she really wanted to this year and so put the fondant decor onto a storebought cake] Additionally, months ago she actually had shown me a picture where someone had a cake like that and laughed, and I went on to explain that I would've found it offensive if I was the person who received it. So it kind of feels like I was completely ignored because SHE found it funny.
It also feels like she is decorating the cake for herself, not me; my sister actually saw the cake before me and was the one who told me what it was and when my sister said I might be upset by the cake, my mum only mentioned how she had a "gift" for decorating but how "I guess I just can't do anything right with you guys."
Anyways, I would love advice for if I'm overreacting!! I can definitely get into my own head.
Since I will be receiving the cake tomorrow, I'd also love advice for how I show react when I see it. Maybe the exam stress is getting to me but I teared up thinking about how the "reward" for exam stress and my birthday is a reminder of my failings.
EDIT (same day, just a little later haha): I have appreciated all the really supportive and kind comments. I will definitely try and rise above it tomorrow and be the bigger person by not reacting x
However, if the cake is accompanied by an adjoining rude comment, I'll definitely take the advice of you guys and subtly speak up
I appreciate you all so much!! Your kindess is so heartwarming. For now, I will definitely focus on the exam and then cleaning my room lol
[P.S to those you asked, I will try and get a pic]
SECOND EDIT (just before I go sleep) Having read some comments I can definitely see why some people have said I overreacted; I think because this is a repeated pattern, my frustration might feel like it comes from nowhere. But I want to say that I in no way shape or form don't acknowledge my privilege, or take the fact my mum has a cake for me to begin with for granted.
Additionally, if I hadn't known all this in advance, I probably would have quietly thought these things and taken it in stride, but I wanted to the opportunity to talk it out, so thanks to you all!
Wow this post is long now. Appreciate all the insight xx