the hedotis chapter
This chapter was sad in so many ways.
Most obviously, for xaden. He sees the new life and family his mom created without thinking twice about him for the last 13 years. Her love for him wasn’t enough to withstand the lack of freedom that apparently came with a contractual agreement like hers and Fen’s. He sees two boys get the maternal affection he’s been missing since he was 10 and it has to sting even more that he has two half brothers that don’t even know he exists. After throwing digs at her throughout dinner, he sees the chocolate cake actually WANTS to give her another chance. He wants to eat the cake because even the fact that she REMEMBERED it was his favourite was more than he had ever expected of her. Only to find out it was poisoned by her husband. He leaves without any closure- and if anything, on worse terms than before.
Obviously this is sad enough but then there are moments of violet’s trauma that also peek through. After seeing Talia run towards her boys, the ONLY thing she can relate that kind of concern to is from her sister. Not even her mother. “She pulls back and gives them the same once-over I usually earn from Mira after a battle.”
Moreover she’s watching the love of her life actually express sadness for probably the first time in their relationship. She relates his situation to her own mother which also has to be hard since i doubt they talk about her often- given what she cost xaden.
“Because my mother just died.” He stills, and regret instantly washes over his face. “I’m sorry, Violet.” “You don’t need to be. I’m just saying that I’m not the person to ask if you should spend a night talking to yours, because I would give anything for ten minutes with mine.” I set my hand over my chest like it has a prayer of holding the grief inside where it belongs.”
I doubt she ever wanted comfort from him after she died because she probably doesn’t even want her occupying xaden’s mind anymore. She knows and resents what lilith did to him. But with that empathy, it also means violet hasn’t grieved at all. she hasn’t spoken to anyone about it, which means it’s all gonna come out in the next book probably.
Just thought it was notable how depressing this chapter was for everyone lol.