u/Xandoline

It was very hard to cope with the fact that I could no longer tolerate her cruelty at the beginning.
Now, I don’t miss her at all, not even a little bit. I appreciate what we once had when we were younger, but we’re different people now and I refuse to hold onto someone just because I’m related to them.
We’re in our 20s, so the possibility of reconciliation in the future still holds. But I’m not expecting it, especially not while she still has a great relationship with our BPD mother whom kicked me out for being gay. And no, I don’t talk to her either.
Does time really pass this fast? I have no regrets at all, it’s just hard to believe this is the new normal.

I’ve had so many people do this to me, and I’ve hated it every time as I have a bad gag reflux.
Is that it? Making guys gag turns people on?

The last guy I was giving head to pushed my head down and I literally threw up on him. Luckily he was super cool about it and we continued after, but of course I was mortified. If I want to go deeper than I will… everyone’s different but I don’t handle deepthroating well