u/Yo_Nort

But of an odd post but I’ve noticed that a majority of the people in my life (including some family) have always looked down on me. I try to do the right thing all the time and I never understood why I’m treated so bad.

I treat women with respect and I get dirt thrown in my face, I try to be friends with guys I see often and they just bully me for things I can’t do rather then what I can do.

I was bullied and picked on all throughout elementary and middle and half way through high

I think the only reason i seriously haven’t done anything about it is because my grandfather always taught me that getting revenge or taking out your anger on another person makes you no better then the person that treated you poorly in the first place, I’ve always just bottled it up and let it out later by myself with some sort of task.

I also realize that I have a deep rooted hatred for people that I continue to struggle with, it sometimes pains me to do the right thing simply because on one half I know it’s right to be a kind person and offer help but the thought of how many times I’ve asked for help and gotten nothing sickens me

I just want to know what’s wrong with me? Is it the way I look? Is it the way I talk? And another thing, I hate when people in general talk to me about dating, I’ve grown so distant from the concept but yet crave it at the same time. It’s always a “you deserve someone who sees your worth” but I have no idea how long that’s gonna take. And then when i actually try to put myself out there the girl I like has a friend with her that will get in my way and just start making fun of me.

I hate people in general but they’re all only human. That’s been my reasoning for a long time, hate quietly while still being a good person to them in hopes that atleast one or two people will see me as something other than an inconvenience.

I don’t know what to do honestly, I’m so tired of this really but I could never even consider ending my own life because I feel like that’s a waste of life especially because I’m not super religious so I don’t know what comes after which is pretty scary.

If anyone has any recommendations I’m willing to hear it. Not asking for sympathy comments only i genuinely just wanna know if there’s any hope left before I just go my entire life despising everyone I talk to

I had no clue there was a verification thing and my account got bombed😢 but it would be super cool if someone send me an invite please!!!!

Email: loathsomelocust@gmail.com

For some reason my account was killed or something🤷 my current email is loathsomelocust@gmail.com if anyone is feeling gracious today!

I’ve been seeing a lot of posts on this subreddit talking about non-offending pedophiles and how they shouldn’t be shamed.

I’m very aware of mental illness and how it’s not something people choose to have. A few people were saying that non-offending pedos don’t indulge in CP or the crime against a minor but have thoughts of being with a child.

I’m not one to jump to guns and shoot at whatever I think without having some knowledge on the topic.

I’ve heard this also ties into loli/shotacon content which is the styling of an adult character that is made to look like a small innocent child, which I believe to be inherently wrong as the origin of the terms comes from a book depicting a man sexualizing a minor character.

I don’t enjoy or like the thought of anything remotely pedophilic as it just genuinely grosses me out. Anyways I don’t think shaming people without a decent reason is a good thing, I don’t base my morals off of my emotions but rather my logic.

My first question: how is loli/shota content ethical?
I’m aware it is fictional but it feeds into the thought process of liking children in an intimate way despite the characters being adults, and I don’t think we should feed into it but instead find a way to gently guide those away from they’re sexual interest in children. Also does loli/shota content(nsfw) not count as cp as the characters are stated to be adults?

My second question: if they are non offending is there a way for them to get help to get them away from their intrest in children.

My third question: what’s considered offending?

My fourth question: would you support a non offending pedo to continue on their behavior and not seek help?

My fifth question: where does the intrest of children develop and when is it considered an issue to people who support non offenders

My sixth question: is it ignorant to negate someone’s pedophilic thoughts and suggestions them a therapist to help with they’re issue

My last question: why is loli/shota content ok if its is intended to fuel pedophilic thoughts for children sexually/romantically.

I only want to learn before I have made my thoughts ignorant and based on knowledge that is false

I don’t wear pumas often but I heard about the speed cats and I was almost on the verge of buying them but I like hightop shoes so I decided against it.

Eventually I found out they make the speedcat wedges which are a women’s shoe but they look sick in my opinion. The only reason I haven’t blown all my money on a pair yet is because apparently they are heeled.

Despite the fact that I am a dude that’s not the issue. The issue is that I don’t want to feel like I’m wearing heels while I’m wearing the shoe. So I want to know if there’s a way to change the hell out or if I have to just bite the bullet and buy them cool heeled shoes.

Any suggestions help!