u/YouladySkwisgaar

I have been dealing with this my entire life. I thought it was normal as a kid. To me, that’s what underwear was for. It was to protect your pants because people leak pee.

As it turns out I have learnt this is not the case. I believe I might be dealing with some sort of partial incontinence. I can hold it mostly but over the course of my day I tend to leak into my pants.

It wasn’t so bad before but lately I have noticed I have been leaking into my actual pants more and more often. And more and more so there has been less pee coming out of me when I actually reach a toilet.

The problem is I don’t even realise it’s happening until I feel how wet and uncomfortable I am. I don’t know how I don’t realise. It’s like I can feel that I need to pee most of the time but I leak out a considerable amount if I don’t get to the bathroom right when the urge hits and I don’t even notice until it’s already happened.

Does anyone else relate? I feel like I’m losing my mind. If it helps I am diagnosed autistic

I am 19 years old and still live at home. I unfortunately do not have the money to purchase my own food.

My mother is the one that does all our shopping but she makes no effort to purchase any produce or proteins. She’s always told me she doesn’t like vegetables and doesn’t care for protein. The only thing she’ll buy are things like chips and crackers or cheese and pop. Things that are just not healthy at all.

For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to lose weight but I didn’t have the necessary means to which means I developed a restrictive eating disorder as a younger teen. I’m largely recovered now but I now have a new problem of being medically obese (due to medications that caused weight gain) and I really need to shave off these pounds without limiting myself to 200 calories a day.

I don’t know how to do it without healthy produce and proteins.

(Edit: I’ve been trying to get a job for the past four years. If I could be working I would be. I want nothing more than to be able to take control of my own life. At a certain point, getting a job is out of my control. I apply to 50 jobs a week on average and get little interviews and no luck on call backs. This is the reality of applying for entry level jobs in Canada rn)

Im about three years post-recovery (which I am thrilled about) but I just can’t seem to shake the feeling that I’m *too* recovered.

I have gained about >!100lbs!< over just the last year and I’m now considered medically obese. There’s various reasons for my rapid weight gain, mostly some medications I’m on for non-weight related reasons. I’ve already found myself returning to that anorexia mindset in some ways and I can catch myself but it’s hard to force myself to stop thinking that way. I don’t want to be fat but I also don’t want to pass out at random bc I havnt eaten in three days. I feel like there will never be a happy medium for me.

I don’t really know what I’m looking for here. Maybe someone who can relate to my issue. I just want to talk to someone.