u/Zealousideal-Buy7940

So I've been going to the gym consistently for about a year now and Ive been trying to lift heavier and really focus on my routines but lately leg day has been an extreme challenge. I usually start my exercises with either goblet or sumo squats then go on to lunges until failure and then I will usually do 2 machines. Lately when I do my squats I get extremely fatigued very early on and have to sit down for a break as my heart is beating fast and I get a little light headed and out of breath. I know the weight isnt that heavy bc it's the same weight I always do and sometimes I will even drop 5 lbs bc I know I've been struggling with this. Usually do 3 x 12 which I finish but then when I go on to do my lunges and the rest of my workout I am still fatigued and out of breath from the squats. It's really annoying me because I know I can do better in my workouts and I obviously want to have energy bc I tend to go harder on the machines then I do the squats. It seems like I'm getting stronger on every exercise but my squats. Im just confused why this is constantly happening to me every week even though it's been my usual routine and if I should stop doing squats.

I was walking across Downtown Brooklyn area today and I asked what they were filming and low and behold it was Dexter. I freakeddddd out. They were filming in the subway so I didn't see any celebrities but the guy told me Uma Thurman was there that week and another actress named Sarah? They had on the trailer a sign that said Numero Uno and another sign that said Don Framt so New York Ripper.

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Sometimes I recreate your recipes in an attempt to make my body calm; like an unattainable medicine.

They told me that food heals the soul and maybe that's why I was born hungry. An overcompensation for what was, yet to come.

I was born a monster.

I still can't get them right no matter how hard I try. No matter how hard I think the memories still miraculously fade: which is both remedial and an incredible loss.

Did you use paprika or garlic salt?

Do you ever think of me when you're up at night? Do I make you lose sleep? Do you count down the days since we last knew each other?

Did we ever truly meet? Is this because half of my existence was rooted in nefarious lies?

I am truly sorry. I am lying again.

If your memory is poison, I would have overdosed trying to uncover where our toxins stem from.

I will spend the rest of my life trying to figure out who deserves the blame more.

I'm glad I didn't get your freckles.

I am sad I don't get the dignity to cut you out of myself.

I would have a better time looking at my face if I saw flesh and not blood

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