something wrong with me ?
I am a 27-year-old woman and I have never been in a relationship. Never had any intimate experience either. I’m quite shy and introverted, and honestly I’ve always struggled to connect with people romantically. I look decent, above average I would say, but I’ve never really had that “boys experience” people talk about.
I can also be a little delulu sometimes and it’s very rare for me to genuinely like someone. Recently, I saw a guy’s biodata in a group and later found the same guy on Hinge. He liked my profile there too. I got so happy because for once it felt like things could actually work — same caste, same religion, similar background. In my head I started thinking maybe life is finally settling into place.
We started talking. He replied late most of the time, but I still tried because usually I run away from these situations and this time I genuinely wanted to make an effort. He asked for my Snapchat, so I thought okay maybe things were progressing.
But then everything became confusing. He would disappear for days. One day I told him clearly that if he wants to talk, he should reply properly. Then he said something like, “I asked you multiple times for calls and pictures and you never did that.” But honestly, he only casually mentioned a call once and disappeared after that. What was I supposed to do? Randomly chase him and call him out of the blue on Snapchat?
Still, because I wanted things to work, I texted him again. No reply. I deleted my message later. And then I realized he blocked or ignored me on Snapchat.
I know this may sound small, but it genuinely hurt me. I already struggle with opening up to people and situations like this make me feel like maybe relationships are just not meant for me.
Why does this keep happening? Sometimes I honestly pray that God either gives me something real or takes away this constant longing and sadness.