u/_Laughing_Man

I moved to roseburg from ten mile about 7 months ago. Out there we didn't have trash service. Here, I pay for a trashcan and a recycling bin.

I usually leave out my cans for any homeless that want them. This last month I've had recycling that the homeless don't want. I've left it out on trash day the last 4 weeks. It hasn't been picked up and one time I was kicked over ...

Why the hell do I pay for a recycling bin if they don't take it?

What in the world are you doing? Lol

I have been on a journey, taking my mental health seriously, for the past year or so. I got treated for depression and anxiety, and that was good, but I knew more was going on. After working with my psychiatrist and behavioral health specialist, we determined that I had anxiety masked inattentive ADHD.

I've been on methylphenidate for 2 months now and it's honestly been life changing. I can actually function like a normal person.

However even with the antidepressants I notice that I still have cycles of low, high, and "normal" moods, but the lows don't feel as intense. Looking back I'm noticing that this has been a pattern for me for a long time. When I first sought help for my depression years ago, I lamented to my fiancee that, "I don't know how I'm going to feel when I wake up each day."

It's also probably the reason I didn't seek help for so long. I would feel "normal" for months, then depressed for a month, then on top of the world for a week or 2 then "normal" again. This is leading me to believe I may have BP.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Friday and I've been thinking about bringing it up, but honestly I'm scared of losing my ADHD prescription. At least with the medication I can actually function despite the mood instability. I'm dreading having to test out new different medications with different side effects and not having the ADHD meds to help me power through.

Does anyone have experience with this situation?