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I want to make a 3d horror game named "Ice_Breaker", but I'm only 13, and have NO IDEA how to code at all.

I need genuine advice and programs that'll help me learn, especially for free since I know my parents won't fund this.

I already have the idea in mind, along with characters and possible designs; I'm just stuck on coding right now. I'm seriously dedicated to this, can you help?

Any advice is appreciated, especially about free coding programs/3d model makers.

(before you read, I go by any pronouns EXCEPT feminine pronouns. They/them, he/him, etc are fine, idc, but don't use she/her on me please)

I (13, FtM) came out to my irl mom when I was 12 while we were in the car. I was sobbing while I came out to her, but she just seemed uncomfortable when she heard it and asked me if I'm sure and if I'm just confused. I am not confused. I have been feeling like this for years before my mom even knew.

She hasn't even tried to call me Coner (Connor—I just spell it odd) nor call me by he/him. Recently, I got enrolled in a new school and she registered me as Connor (she doesn't know I spell it Coner) and with he/him pronouns. I'm happy, yes, and we did openhouse at the new school yesterday—but I can't help but feel angry and a little sad that she hasn't tried doing this already when I came out to her. She's cancelled all orders to get me a binder, and I know she has.

I just don't know what to do or say to her..I know it's a lot to process that she doesn't have a daughter anymore, but she can at least try, can't she?

I just wanted to get this off my chest about my feelings. Sorry for how long this is.

I (FtM) have gone through MANY chosen names before I even came out to my irl mother.

Kai, Blake, Cilas, and another name I forgotten, but I finally landed on Connor...Except I didn't know how to spell it right the first time I chose it.

I spelled it as Conner. Then I came out to my mom with this name, but now I don't know how to tell her I spell it as "Coner", not "Connor".

Do I spell my chosen name like a dumbass? Probably lmao.

I've recently rejoined the fandom after a few years, and I honestly think of the "canon" (heavy on the quotes) characters differently than a lot of the people in the fandom (from what I've heard)—I don't mean folklore myths that were turned into creepypastas, I mean the actual original creepypastas; Eyeless Jack, Jeff the Killer, Nina the Killer, etc etc etc.

I think of these characters very differently, along with some planned rewrites. Is that something the fandom doesn't like, or just doesn't care about? I know the fandom probably got worse over the years, but I'm not sure since I quit a few years back before rejoining a few months ago.