u/abundleofboomers

A slept on golden age mde vid. When they ran out of money and broke into an abandoned grow house in LA. Nick smoked moldy weed and charls definitely took the ecstasy.

Miss my boys, been going through the back catalog and I forgot about so many videos. 2012-2016 mde was lightning in a bottle. Recording yourselves doing drugs and breaking into a weed grow house is so fucking funny. Past the statute of limitations and for anyone that has doubts this is real, warch the whole thing. Sam acting like he never has taken a drug is hilarious.

So this girl randomly stumbled into my life like a month ago, and i'm smitten with her. She has similar mental issues, but honestly im a talkative spaz, and she's really mellow and quiet, and tbh i'm not used to that. She told me she loved me on the way back from our first date, and that kind of warped my brain into her immediately becoming my "favorite person". We went to a carnival, literally the happiest i've been in longer than I can remember. Also the uhh, intimacy is great, i'll say that much. I'm diagnosed bpd, have been for years. We've had several dates, she's stayed the night at my place, and everything was going great. But the last one i screwed up and got way too messed up in front of her, some bs from a smoke shop.

So she was a bit mad for a day or so but after that it was cool. The main thing is, she suddenly got a lot harder to get a text back from, i'm talking all day sometimes. She works full time, but like I won't get a response for 18 hours, and a lot of the time its a one or two word response, most days she still calls and says i love you, and that calms me down. I've had a rough past couple of days, so i've been blowing her phone the fuck up. And tbh i've done that from the beginning. I've never fallen in love this fast, and i desperately don't want to fuck this up but my mind is reaching all these crazy conclusions, she hates me, she's gonna dump me, she's cheating on me, etc. Typical bpd shit. Thankfully I have enough restraint to not speak most of those thoughts out, and I delete most of the messages i type out when I can't get ahold of her. But i still try to call her too much, and send too many messages. I know if I keep it up I will scare her off, even though she has similar mental shit i do. And she's definitely at the least annoyed with me at the moment.

Any tips on dealing with anxious attachment and not acting insane? It's funny because before this I was single for a good period of time, and was avoidant as hell, but every time I find my new "favorite person", I act crazy and scare them off. She's a really sweet girl, and this is embarassing as a grown man. Thanks

does anyone have it, that's it, i'm gay. Dude was years ahead, cocaine conspiracy rant.