u/accbcjc

2yo now and mostly great but was such a difficult infant. Cried hours at a time with no relief. Slept horribly and would stay away for 10+ hours at a time, mostly crying. It was truly an awful newborn/infant period. Also had PPD/PPA though not sure how much of it was just situational because of pure lack of sleep and constant crying.

Well today my 2yo was just extra whiny and wanted to be carried everywhere. Constantly throwing a fit about everything possible. Really sent me back to the days where nothing I did was right or helped. Also makes me feel like a crap mom when my kid only wants me but I also can’t make anything better.

Thought these days were behind me but today was rough. Just venting. Thanks for listening.

Finished school with 270k in student loans. Making great money now so wanted to aggressively pay them off to just be done with it. Pretty excited to have no debt now.

Edit: paid off*

I’m a 33F and have been riding for about 6 years with my husband. Live and ride in northwest Arkansas. Currently have a 2021 canyon neuron 6. I consider myself intermediate but don’t do anything crazy. Relatively fit but still need breaks. Considering doing a race for the first time but nervous. Can I take breaks? What if I’m the slowest person out there? What if I don’t finish? Appreciate the advice.

Edit: thanks for the tips! One more question, what if I can’t make a climb and need to hike-a-bike? Is that allowed?