u/allure_elite

So I joined the Air Force almost 2 years ago. About a year and a half at my first base I have a mental break down. I’m put into IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program). The program is now over (my last day was last week) and I feel no better. I had ______ ideation really bad over the weekend. Idk how to tell my provider or my command team. She has already mentioned possibly referring me for a MEB because of my intolerance to 4 antidepressant medication. She mentioned TMS but hasn’t mentioned when it’ll start … or if it even will. I’m tired of not knowing my future. Also tired of not being able to silence the voices in my head. Has anyone gone through something similar? Should I be worried about an MEB?

So I decided to share this story just because I thought it was interesting. I am heavily into witchy things but I’ve only done one simple working to sweeten a connection that was already built. Anyway, I started dating a guy last year and he was soooo into me he called me a witch and said I must’ve put something on him (i absolutely did not). He also told me he started making a large amount of money when we got together and he would give me some of it. Fast forward a few months he grows distant and hits me with the it’s me not you speech, even though I thought we were happy. It came completely out of left field so I was shocked and heart broken but prepared to move on. Literally the next week he asked if I put a curse on him because his money dried up out of no where. Again, I hadn’t done anything at all…

I reflected and realized this pattern has happened to the last few guys I’ve dated… it’s so odd to me because I haven’t done any workings. Anyone else experience something like this?

Maybe someone can help me. I dreamed that I was at my boyfriend’s house (which is where I am in real life). Before leaving for work, he kissed me twice on the cheek while I was still in bed. After he left, I got up looking for something to eat.

I noticed two boxes of sweets hanging off the refrigerator, but they suddenly fell to the floor near an open garage that was hidden behind a large curtain. In the dream, I already knew the garage was there, but I also knew he didn’t want me going through it.

I bent down to pick up the sweets, but to reach them I had to partially step into the garage. Inside were dozens of large, blue and white duffle bags. I had no idea what was in them. As I looked around, I noticed a small section of female mannequins, like the kind you see in a clothing store but without heads. They were dressed in women’s clothing, but the clothes weren’t mine. They seemed to belong to someone else possibly a former girlfriend or his ex wife (he was married before and went through hell with her).

The feeling wasn’t that he was cheating on me. Instead, it felt like there was something from his past that he wasn’t telling me about.

Then I noticed a huge black dog in the garage. It began growling at me and suddenly charged. I ran back into the apartment, trying to escape. I jumped onto a bed, hoping to get away, but the dog followed me. Just as it was about to bite me, I woke up.