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TW: Possibly triggering terms!

Rn im still at the place it happened 😔

So basically i was at church just chilling on the bench, untill a mother got in with her kid coughing like mad. I was like oh shi but then it was fine. While the mom and her kid were walking on the hallway (in the middle of the benches in the church) the kid just got puked on the floor 😭😭 you could hear everyone whispering shocked and disgusted terms. I didn't freak out. I stayed in my seat, thinking kids are kids.

They cleaned it up, but the smell gotta be the worst part 🫩 its still lingering in the air rn i wished they opened a window.

So rn im still in my seat. Freaking a bit inside. Texted my friend and my brother, but im still getting anxious. What am i going to do when i get home? I have the big urge to just go feral and disinfect everything, but that would just reninforce my fear. Im thinking about how people had to deal with worse smells, so that some putrid smell isn't the worse. I don't want to feed my fear at all, because there is no reason to be scared, but idk what to do??

I also want to say that sometimes exposure is not gonna be fun, but that it could be part of recovery and no matter what, as long as youre not dying, youre safe.

Yes, you read well, 2k. To be fair, i am not an atlethic person.

So, i have a cross country in more than one week and im horrible, like, i can't even run 500m without puffing and a cramp. Made me feel like a lazy mammouth so i've slacked off. But the run is still happening so i want to be able to jog 2.5k without dying.

Idk why they think that forcing teens to run a certain length is benefical. Like, do they expect teens that barely do any exercice to be fine?

Anyway, i think that the issue is my cardio. Im thinking about trying another form of cardio to prepare myself. My form is pretty ahh too, i keep losing it when i run. I've tried to two breaths in, one breath out but its kind of useless for my case.

Anyway, im open for any advice 🥲 maybe this time ill stick to exercicing because how humbling is it to struggle something so...basic for a healthy human being.

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Im 15 and my mental health is taking a hit. It is 2 am as i am writing rn, bc ive been turning around since i CANNOT sleep. Its crazy. Few days before school? Fine, slept throughout the night basically like a baby, pretty good sleep. Since yesterday? CANNOT. REST. I barely cannot eat at school, had issues for this for years to eat in public, but since day one i could tell it was hard. Im trying to push anyway because my deregulated brain won't win.

Im alr diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and stuff but its INSANE. Like i can FEEL that my body is NOT okay, like NOT at all.

The issue is that i have no close friends at school. I used to but they all left. For some reason, this is really important for me. Ive felt invisible my whole life and i struggle to socialise rn. Since a few years ive been developping issues bc of this stress of being alone, while being alone is not pleasant, but its not a crime!! You can survive! And worse yet, im not actually alone: i FEEL alone.

So yeah, idk what to do, but what i know is that it cannot last. If anyone has dealt with something like this, advice would be needed. Thank you.

I don't have a therapist or anything like that, and id rather keep it that way. Please, whatever works, ill apply it. I hate feeling like this. I don't want it to ruin my life. I take meds but where i live the health system is horrible, sooo idk what i can do. Should i reach out at school? I don't want to bother my parents, they wouldn't get it and they would be sad...

Maybe it isn't the best sub to post this but...my mental health is taking a hit. It is 2 am as i am writing rn, bc ive been turning around since i CANNOT sleep. Its crazy. Few days before school? Fine, slept throughout the night basically like a baby, pretty good sleep. Since yesterday? CANNOT. REST.

Im alr diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and stuff but its INSANE. Like i can FEEL that my body is NOT okay, like NOT at all.

The issue is that i have no close friends at school. I used to but they all left. For some reason, this is really important for me. Ive felt invisible my whole life and i struggle to socialise rn. Since a few years ive been developping issues bc of this stress of being alone, while being alone is not pleasant, its not a crime!! You can survive! And worse yet, im not actually alone: i FEEL alone.

So yeah, idk what to do, but what i know is that it cannot last. If anyone has dealt with something like this, advice would be needed. Thank you.

For me it is watching old shows i used to watch when i was younger. Sometimes its corny but, i get a break

Its kinda random but wtv im bored

So since summer started my screen time has greatly increased, it used to be average 4-5h a day, now it is 8-10 hours 😬 i could be using that time for more than scrolling.

The biggest culprit rn is instagram. Now, i have a toxic relationship with that app. I really struggle to delete it from my phone bc it feels like my only gate to the world. I can see what familly and friends are doing, i can talk to alot of people, see what people like, etc, so i should feel less lonely, right? Well, i feel more alone than ever. I compare myself to other people, i litteraly AVOID answering to messages, i watch stupid reels that have been curated and placed for me to react, get mad and way more biased. It does not help my anxiety at all. So there is no valuable reason for me to keep using this app.

But...i can't. I don't want to be left out, i don't want to feel alone. I don't want to sit in silence. I can't even eat without watching something. It makes me so unhappy. I don't have anything better to do. Im socially awkward and basically friendless

Well, i don't want my life to be like this anymore. I think it is probably time to break up with Instagram and take time for myself.

So how can i succeed in this detox? Any advice would be appreciated. I really want to be more than who i am now.

Im thinking about volonteering.

PS: HOLY yap session, sorry for the long ahh text 🫩

Basically im an introvert but i want to open myself more to and get out more often to be mentally sane bc social media is bullcrap, a waste of mind and sometimes useful but tbh humans aren't meant to be watching a screen all day and we blame teens but ppl aren't doing shi to make an actual change, anyway

So sometimes my friends ask me if i wish to hang out and stuff, even though i know those people, i don't feel like hanging out and stuff and making the social effort. But didn't i just say i wanted to get out more??? Yes i did, im contradicting myself and fking up my life

Basically i want the result of a good social life without the effort

And well...nothing changes bc i don't go out, im scared of people judging me and stuff while ppl really don't care 🫩 atleast normal people

So anyway here is a reminder that wanting to do the stuff is not doing the stuff, saying you will do the stuff is not doing the stuff.

Anyone feels this way 😭✌️

Ps: this post is kind of all over the place but who gaf its Reddit

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F15, Soo, i have a friend that came to my school this year. We were childhood friends. We had a pretty good friendship. I told her everything, and i trusted her with everything. I have the bad habit of oversharing sometimes but...it is my friend.Then she made new friends. It kind of made me sad but whatever, im used to it. Then out of nowhere she's gotten like, more hostile towards me. Like, it seems like she gets more pissed off when talking to me. When we walk and talk togheter it really feels like she doesn't want to listen to me, it feels like shes bored, that she doesn't want to be here. I can feel that. I tried talking about it to her, but then it would come back to being the same. It pisses me off so much because why aren't you honest? She told me that she thinks that we don't have the same interests, but before she wasn't as annoying. Idk, people are weird, i hate teenagehood, i have no true friends in here.

Ok there is this guy i had something for in the span of 2 years now, and now he highkey likes someone else in my class. My first response was thinking that they won't last, but its giving jealous. So how can i move on?

F15 here. Listen. Ive spent my summers doing nothing but wasting my time on my phone when summer is a time where i get to focus on only myself. Im tired, im done. I've seen people become completly DIFFERENT people in the span of two months. To be realistic, i don't want to completly change because even though i think that if i put my ahh to it i could, i know myself so ill be realistic. I just want to improve those points

-Communication: i want to be better at communication to better express myself and actually say what i think and create interesting experiences. I want to connect, i want to make friends. Maybe lifetime ones. I want to stop being shy, because it never got me far in life yfm 🤷🏾‍♀️

-Work: I want to start creating my own income and i want to do volonteering, which kind of relates to my first point

- Leisure and work out: I want to go outside more often. I want to bike, i want to play sports with friends or even random people, i want to be outside. I want to read. I wan't to workout, i have weighs at home. Enough of the damm doomscrolling

-Style: I want to improve my style to actually feel confident in what i wear. Also self affirmations could help. I want to build a skincare routine and improve my makeup

My biggest issues:

-Motivation does not last

-Going back to old habits fast

-PHONE.

So if anyone has any tips to share or reddits to recommend that would be rly helpful. Also, if you did get a glow up during summer pls tell me what you did.

SORRY FOR THE YAP STORY, well not really

F15 here. Listen. Ive spent my summers doing nothing but wasting my time on my phone when summer is a time where i get to focus on only myself. Im tired, im done. I've seen people become completly DIFFERENT people in the span of two months. To be realistic, i don't want to completly change because even though i think that if i put my ahh to it i could, i know myself so ill be realistic. I just want to improve those points

-Communication: i want to be better at communication to better express myself and actually say what i think and create interesting experiences. I want to connect, i want to make friends. Maybe lifetime ones. I want to stop being shyyyyah

-Work: I want to start creating my own income and i want to do volonteering, which kind of relates to my first point

- Leisure and work out: I want to go outside more often. I want to bike, i want to play sports with friends or even random people, i want to be outside. I want to read. I wan't to workout, i have weighs at home. Enough of the damm doomscrolling

-Style: I want to improve my style to actually feel confident in what i wear. Also self affirmations could help. I want to build a skincare routine and improve my makeup

My biggest issues:

-Motivation does not last

-Going back to old habits fast

-PHONE.

So if anyone has any tips to share or reddits to recommend that would be rly helpful. Also, if you did get a glow uo during summer pls tell me what you did.

Good day to you all!!

Ok so im at church rn kinda bored and i was thinking about a dude that i was good friends with. I found him smart and stuff, we have similar beliefs and we did talk about personal stuff with eachother ok, so we good buds

But then i realised that when i saw bro with other girls...i felt jealous bro, well not jealous, but like sad or something, like especially like this year bc we don't rly talk anymore, and everytime i ever mention bro, everyone always teases me that i like him but i always deny it bc brother hes my friend 😭✌️ bro not even my type and i don't think he cares about me as much as i care bro, and ALSO i have interest on 2 DIFFERENT DUDES 💔 (Im not a bop, im just delulu and passionate, the girls who get it GET IT)

Idk why im asking ppl on Reddit but uh...do i have a crush or am i just loyal??

So earlier i used perplexity ai to help me with my math homework. Most of the time i use it as a last solution tool if i really don't understand what im doing or i can't see the mistakes im doing. I don't reccopy prompts for essays or stuff like that, its just to understand my mistakes and help me with homework.

I feel like the use of AI tools is demonised somehow, but honestly, i feel that the main issue with it is that people do not use it correctly. Thats what we have students that do everything with chatgpt because they don't want to do their homework. Ngl, most of the time Perplexity be saving my ahh when i don't understand shi, but i still feel guilty about using it. Any thoughts?

Since i've devlopped a high anxiety about eating in public because of emetophobia, i feel uncomfy as hell to eat outside. Ive got through school and stuff like that, but when i have an event coming, my first thought is always about the meal. Most of the time when i eat at events, at first its ok, but then i feel extremely anxious and i can't finish my meal. Im embarrased about it and i just want to eat normally again, no matter where i am. Any tips to break this pattern?

Ok i lwk just wanna yapp because i really feel like my life is boring and going nowhere and idk what to do, this is not rly serious but advice is appreciated

1. Friendships that are not fully...fullfilling?

Since i've started highschool ive never find people that i was truly like GREAT friends with...i mean, we cool, but there isn't THAT connection that you would have in a friendship yfm? Like im kind of on the side and floating around...reminds me, my friend from primary school came to my school this year and i was happy frfr, because for once i would have an actual main friend, a friend that we vibe with all the time yfm...then she started talking to another girl in class (that is also my friend and i did introduce them to eachother) and now they are more friends so when i hang out with them i feel like a fricking side piece bro 😭🙌 and now i lwk wanna talk with other ppl in my class but im not great at socialising and showing presence ig so atp ive just abandonned this shi and accepted that it was my life till, hopefully after highschool

2. MY LIFE IS BORING.

Yo sometimes ive been watching ppl ig stories and im like, dang, im rly wasting my life on my phone 😭 bro i have few skills (clarinet and ig good grades 💔) i am not atlethic at ALL, im trying to change that and to workouts and pick up sports but uhhh...its not really working, im actually really weak thats embarrasing like i NEED to change that bc im not winning fights! NO REAL HOBBIES, i used to love reading but now ive stopped 💔💔 no drip, no...no nothing bro its lwk sad bro...the things that im actually in are SO BORING TO ME. Like i tried choir at my school and it was so ass i left...anyways idk whatodo, I KNOW STORIES DONT REFLECT REAL LIKE ALWAYS, but still bro ☹️

3. I FEEL INVISIBLE

Kinda relates to point 1 but i don't know how to improve my social skills, and thats bad because i actually want to leave an impact on people but if i cant even talk with confidence and realness bro what am i doing 💔 like when i talk to my friends its feels like im acting 😭 ive caught myself saying things in class to get ppls attention and guess what? NOBODY CARED 💔 im so embarrased by myself bro. So bascially im the girl everyone in the class vibes with but doesn't actually wanna be with and i kind of hate that because all my life in school settings i felt invisible bro...

CONCLUSION: I HATE IT HERE

I lwk cannot wait to move from my city and start a new like, not life but idk how to explain anyway thats my yap sesh. If yall can relate thats nice frfr

I kind of need help and advice. The problem is that ive gained the habit of saving videos on yt in the watch later file that i always think will be useful to me. I do the same thing on instagram. The thing is that i end up never watching these videos i save. At this point, i spend more time saving these videos "for later" than actually watching them. I guess i have some kind of fear that if i don't watch that video, ill miss information that could change or save my life. Ive been dealing with ocd and anxiety in my life, so i suppose that thought might come from that. I've tried to delete the files where i save those videos, but then, the created habit comes back. I want to stop doing that, i don't neccessarly think its weird, i just don't like doing that. It seems stupid to me.