I made this to sell because I am in need of cash, but I am definitely going to be sad when the day comes. Just have to seal, so I consider this finished.
Please lmk if you have any advice or comments so that I can get better next time. I had so much fun doing this and will be on the lookout for another bag to make my own.
That was me two weeks ago. I actually made a post here asking if what I was feeling was normal and I was very surprised by the pain being worse than anything I’ve ever felt. Over the next week, I contemplated how I could ever feel alright again. I am not there yet, but I want to tell you that each day I have had a little bit more space for peace to enter my life. That doesn’t mean I didn’t spend my morning crying into my tea and toast. But it means that I thought of him and a good memory came to me instead of the last thing I saw when he left.
It does get “better”. It will feel “better”. As cliche as it is, and what no one wants to hear, is true: all you need is time.
Whatever you’re feeling is valid. Sometimes it feels harder when losing a pet because most people don’t understand how it feels to lose a part of your soul and I’m beginning to realize that even that loneliness in grief is a reminder of how lucky we are to have been able to love that deeply and to recognize the gift while we still had it.
I am wishing you all the best and would love to be available if anyone needs to reach out because I know that the comments under my post helped me immensely, even if there were only a few.
To the people whose take time to respond to posts on the sub: I know sometimes the posts can feel repetitive, but I think we all realize that the person posting is going through one of the worst times in their life and the work that you do here is not going unnoticed by me. Thank you.
A ballerina that only pirouettes when her song is played by another knows nothing outside of her home unless she is picked up and placed somewhere new.
She memorizes the glistening dust that accumulates between her viewings, and although she hears of the world outside, she only ever sees the same, other than the floating particles that are free.
One speaks to her. It says that it, too, must be moved by another force in order to see, either by element or by the same hand that, rarely but lovingly, twists her key nine times and a half before it clicks in quick succession and lets her know her song will play in full.
As her only friend floats away to a place beyond and the musical number comes to an end, she realizes all at once that she is gifted with a view no one else can have, for she is the only one within the box when she stops spinning and the lid is closed.
She used to wish to be left open: to see, to allow the dust to land upon her and the sun to fade her color. In fact, she never thought of what was possible inside her home when no one was there to miss her. She only imagined what could be happening in the greater world.
She thinks more honestly about the last time she was allowed to spin. With each full turn she would see herself in the arched mirror adorning the lid of her home, or at least she thinks she saw herself. Her dance is so fast-paced, so perfectly prepared and choreographed, that she realizes she may have been seeing more of the world when she was left alone below.
In her dreams of the world, the curtains would always become a different color. The hardwood would bare a new scuff from the family dog welcomed in the fall.
What if the curtains had changed?
Was there ever even a puppy, or was she living only her dream when alive?
Or was she more alive when encased in burlwood?
Down there, she saw.
She sees.
She wonders with a growing excitement that is not bound by anyone’s hand or interest.
Was she succumbing to the fever one does when abandoned for so long?
Or was she an infant taking its first breath?
I picked these up at an Estate Sale because I thought they looked cool. Could anyone identify as well as tell me any history about them? Lastly, a price approximation. thanks so much!
Blanket statement: ALLEGEDLY ALLEGEDLY ALLEGEDLY for all that is written within this post.
We see Dorit immediately say that she is very happy to report after countless times of being asked that her and PK are “in a good place”. This man is smart and extremely manipulative. It is obvious given what we’ve seen after that aired that he planned to eviscerate her and publicly share her spending/private texts/ etc. His interview that came out a few weeks ago was to be shown before the women tell all to plant a seed of empathy and understanding before the next stage of the plan was to happen.
He knew she had a platform that day and smoothed things over so that she would not speak negatively about him. Whether or not you like her or think she should be talking about it, given what we know now it is a disgusting act.
It is also obvious that Kyle was consistently read in on her for spending and whether or not you think she spent too much is beside the point.
My conspiracy is, Kyle is a pick me to her philandering (ex) (separated and separate, mentally and emotionally) husband. PK used Kyle, and she used the situation as well to get closer to Mau as the middleman to relay information. I can only imagine the amount of times she has said to him “aren’t you so glad that I’m an easy separated wife?”
The second part of my conspiracy involves Sutton and Erika. As we’ve seen in previous seasons, a lot is going on behind the scenes, and sometimes even filmed that we don’t know about. I believe Dorit is very well aware of the sway that Kyle Richards holds over the franchise. She hasn’t liked Dorit since her initial separation. I think that even Dorit was surprised she’s been kept on the show for this long. I believe that she was able to stay based on Mau and PK’s relationship. Last season when it was revealed that Kyle had her own relationship with PK, she then knew the writing was on the wall. That was the first sign, and the final nail in the coffin was when Sutton bowed to the altar that is Kyle Richards. Erika knew she had to latch on and we see her, a woman who has had Dorit by her side as she has been accused of using victims’ payout money, and said things like “the only person I care about is ME.” Erika fully understands the irony of her telling D that she will wait for her to come back to herself and take space. If you rewatch the episode, you can tell when it lands.
The evidence I have to support this idea is every single time this season that Kyle got Ramona catwalk eyes and looked around the room for someone to join in. There was even an episode where she said CAN SOMEBODY SAY SOMETHING!? I think with the network backing Kyle there was a major incentive to dog pile and oust her. The women who were quieter than usual, but did not speak against her should honestly get more praise because it had to be hard.
Amanda was basically a distraction story while all of this got set up. With Kyle running her mouth to everyone who will listen about these issues, given what we’ve seen on camera and most likely behind it, I would not be surprised to find out that she told Amanda some of these things. I believe Dorit knows this, and that’s why she was so keen on finding out WHY Amanda would be having such an opinion without even knowing her.
I don’t like Dorit, but I do have empathy for the fact that she is probably sitting at home looking around and realizing that the entire life that she had was fake. Every person around her was either plotting or silently acquiescing.
My last conspiracy (ALLEGEDLY) is in regards to why she spent so much on herself personally, and what her “threat” meant when she demanded money to keep quiet and not play “dirty games”. We have to remember, she is the one who knows him best. But I believe she found out she didn’t know everything about him before she decided to give up on the relationship. One quick research into him and where his money comes from and you may find some inconsistencies. It is not outside the realm of possibility that she found out some of the traumatic things she went through were by design. It is also not outside the realm of possibility that he might have had help in planning those traumatic events by someone who had done something similar in the past, which would bond them by the blood oath of co-conspirators.
If you were her, and you felt brazen enough to threaten to “out” information and demand instant payment, you might just go spend what you can on items you think you can keep because you know the future is dark when all comes to light.
I love watching these shows and trying to read between the lines psychologically. To me, she spent an entire season, not able to say what she was actually picking up on. When you look at the season from that perspective it starts to make sense.
Also, to the mods of the sub: Thank you so much for giving me a place to finally post. Every single thing I have ever written on the other one (no matter how carefully I word it) has been immediately deleted.