u/annoying-and

WARNING! SPOILERS AHEAD! Sorry I can’t change the title 😅

I’m a quarter of the way through book 4. I’ve read some spoilers, so I know they reject their Fated Mate pairing. I don’t know details so please don’t spoil it too much.

I know I shouldn’t feel this way because they’re so toxic, but it upsets me that Tory and Darius reject their pairing. They’re so made for each other I can feel it through the book (good job authors) and it’s like a gut punch they reject it (because I know what happens after they do) and it breaks me in half.

I understand Tory’s side 100% and I want to smack Darius for not talking to her say saying wtf he needs to say. Ugh, it’s so frustrating!

ETA: spoiler warning

I’m not even sure if this is allowed here or not. I originally posted this somewhere else. PMDD, and it was taken down because of the stay on topic rule. I basically just need someone to talk me down because I’m freaking out.

I’m hoping that I just got my period dates wrong in my app (I forgot to track for June and guessed based on my symptoms because I genuinely couldn’t remember). My periods are somewhat irregular but with birth control, it keeps them mostly on track. I take the mini pill (Meleya, to be precise)

I had sex for the first time in a really, really long time on the 4th of July (lol) but it says I’m 8 days late as of today. I’m going on my first trip out of state in literally two days, so I’m hoping that travel/stress is just making it late or that I got my dates wrong.

Either way I’m freaking out a little. I do NOT want to be pregnant, but everyone around me, that I’ve told, is excited at the idea. The thought of being pregnant and giving birth and raising a child literally makes me cry. It is extremely detrimental to my mental health.

Abortion is (possibly) not an option. I’m so beyond scared to take a test. Every time I go to the bathroom I pray, literally beg, that my period started.

So please girls, and friends w uteruses. Please pray to the period Gods that I get my period. I’d rather be bleeding on my vacation than pregnant at this point.

I’m 3 days away from my period. So, most of it is my period but I feel like a lot of it isn’t.

It doesn’t matter if I’m nice, or if I’m quiet. Someone ends up disliking me at work. They’ll like me at first and then after a while they start to dislike me.

I don’t know what is it, I don’t know what I’m doing or saying wrong but I always end up disliked :(
Now I’m sitting at my lunch break outside crying my fake eyelashes off because I feel like everyone hates me.

Idk I guess I just needed a place to vent.

I’m trying to give the game some grace because it’s a very small indie team and it’s still in early access.

The game has been in development for, what, a decade? And I’ve been following and supporting the development for at least 7 years at this point. I was so excited to play the game, and when I did it felt very lackluster and I found myself extremely disappointed.

I don’t mind paying for it, because I want to support them, but I can totally understand why people don’t want to pay for it at this stage. When I play, it genuinely feels like I’m a beta tester playing a game a few months before release, and it makes me wonder… did they do beta testing before releasing the game? Or were the developers doing all the play testing?