11 months postpartum, struggling with my mental health — thoughts on my doctor’s plan?
I'm 11 months postpartum and finally had an appointment with my doctor today because I've been struggling mentally for quite a while.
I have a history of depression, anxiety, complex PTSD, ADHD and BPD, so mental health issues aren't completely new to me, but postpartum has been particularly hard. I moved away from my family/support system and have very little support where I live now. I've become pretty isolated, overwhelmed and exhausted.
Lately I've been feeling increasingly depressed and emotionally drained. I also ruminate/obsess over things, get stuck in negative thought loops, struggle with feeling unwanted/disconnected, and sometimes feel like I just can't cope with everything. I'm not manic or psychotic and I'm not currently a danger to myself — I just don't feel like myself or like I'm functioning particularly well.
I was supposed to return to work after parental leave soon, but told my doctor I genuinely don't feel mentally ready. He agreed and has taken me completely off work until September 11 while we start treatment.
His plan is:
Trintellix (vortioxetine) 5 mg daily
Referral to a behavioural therapist with a PhD who works in his clinic
Time off work while I start treatment, then reassess
I've tried several SSRIs in the past without much success and recently had a pretty unpleasant reaction when I tried citalopram, so I'm nervous about medication. I'm also still breastfeeding, mostly for comfort/sleep, and was told I'd need to wean in order to take Trintellix, which adds another emotional layer to everything. My baby has her first cold right now, and we fly in a couple days to my home town. I don’t feel like this week is the right time to stop nursing.
For anyone who's dealt with postpartum depression/anxiety or similar mental health issues: does this sound like a reasonable treatment approach? And if you've taken Trintellix, especially after not doing well on SSRIs, what was your experience? Did medication + therapy actually help you feel like yourself again?
Not looking for medical advice or a replacement for my doctor — mostly looking for experiences from people who've been in a similar place.