u/ariadnesthread62

It gets better they said. Just bullshit.

Almost 5 months and baby still screams at the breast. It’s extra fun when we are out and I’m trying to breastfeed and he’s refusing. Picture me with my boob out try to get him to latch and he’s screaming.

I just hate this so much.

If I hadn’t breastfed by daughter until 1 I would have stopped.

It’s hard because I know my supply is fine.

He continues to refuse often. And he doesn’t get that many bottles.

It’s like I’m continuing all this and it’s so stressful every day. I pump 4x per day M-F.

No one sees the daily struggle and toll this takes on me.

My mom has met the 120 months of employment and made 120 payments.

Mohela confirms this data, that she did pay through Aug 2025

Problem is the Student Aid is not displaying payments made after 8/2024

Her employment has been certified through Aug 2025

We have a reconsideration request open, have contacted her local representative for him, called both Mohela (they say they have nothing to do with this) and Student Aid

This is absolutely crazy

What else to do?

My sister who just moved back to our home state a few years ago with her kids is likely moving 1 hour away or out of state.

My mom already lives out of state.

It feels devastating and my sister doesn’t value our relationship or family bond. The reality is our kids won’t know their cousins that well. We won’t be able to travel frequently as a family of 4.

They aren’t moving because of a new job etc. they’re well off.

It’s hard for me not to perseverate on this. Another support leaving me. My kids not having a close relationship with their cousins.

It makes me cry and gives me anxiety. I’m also resentful of her for doing this. There’s no good reason for her to move. She lives in a nice area and her kids have all they could want.

How can I not feel this way. Yet another family support gone.

Baby is a few days over 3 months

I BF my daughter to 11 months.

Baby boy weighs 13.5 lbs at the moment which is under 50th percentile

BF is a daily struggle. While he does it sometimes I feel most of the day I’m offering and he’s arching and screaming. Once he starts screaming he doesn’t calm down and he NEVER bfs when he’s doing that. He has to cry himself to sleep. Do I still try, yes.

He isn’t great at bottles nor preferring them necessarily.

I feel like he’s bad at both types of feeding no matter what variables I change.

I have a metal breakdown in some form on the regular. Sometimes screaming myself or crying.

He has no diagnosed medical problems. The doctor has nothing really to offer me. Lactation consultants are weird, and I don’t know what they or anyone else would recommend.

I am just extremely tired, angry, and depressed

When you come home, people bring you things and check in on you etc.

It’s funny how it all kind of stops suddenly when in reality it’s still as hard as day one home.

My baby cries inconsolably for hours during the day. Purple crying as well. He’s 3 months and I have a 2 year old.

I’m not ok. I live in a constant state of anxiety and I can’t hardly do anything. It’s been the same level of difficulty and no one really seems to understand this.

Just a vent. I definitely don’t expect things but check in and acknowledging my daily struggles would be appreciated.