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I had a guy friend that I knew a while ago and I didn’t think he was that cute but I saw him at another angle and thought he looked super cute. I also looked at his Snapchat story selfie a couple times in a day and I didn’t feel that guilty but suddenly I do even though this was years ago when I still have my boyfriend. I don’t know why I looked I wasn’t interested in dating the guy and I never flirted or said anything that indicated but I still feel like I cheated and I feel like I have to tell my partner or it’s a secret and I’m betraying him. But I also feel guilty even when another guy even talks to me and I don’t know his intentions. I have therapy in a week but I don’t know how to deal with this until then. Also since this event happened years ago I might not even fully remember the situation like I do remember but my mind seems to try to remember it so much that the details might not even be fully correct.

There’s a few therapists in my area but I don’t think they specialize in OCD and I’m not sure how else to find one. I can’t take this anymore and need therapy

I have been with my boyfriend for 10 years and of course have dealt with ROCD for years I would have thoughts of other people and feel so guilty not realizing until very recently it’s ROCD. I have ocd but did not know of this type. Anyways about 6 years ago I had a guy friend that I liked the attention of but nothing else and I know it is wrong this was a long time ago I have stopped and me and my boyfriend have talked about it. But I remember I would check his story frequently and thought the guy looked cute and sometimes go check his story again on Snapchat. I don’t know why I did it, I did not think he was attractive really until he posted a picture in a different angle so I thought he looked cute. I haven’t thought about it until a week ago and now I’ve been feeling so guilty like I cheated or something and I feel like I have to tell my boyfriend or else I’m keeping something from him and I’m a terrible person

I have made stupid choices when I was a teenager and I still feel guilty about them even now at 23. In my head when i make mistakes I feel like I’m a bad person because I shouldn’t have gotten it wrong in the first place or that I’m just stupid for making the mistake. I don’t know what I can do anymore I just live in guilt all the time and I know people say that you need to move on and accept it and the fact that you feel guilty is a good sign but that doesn’t help me

I’ll go and it sounds really silly. I used a word game when I was a child and it was the word heck but I spelt it hec and to me that was a bad word so I felt guilty all day until I told my mom and she said “everyone uses that word it’s not a big deal” and instantly felt better