Comparison
I was in school when a very pretty senior sat next to me for exams, she was too cool, and I remember wishing I was as pretty as her.
A year later, I discovered that she was my crush's ex, I started comparing myself to her very often. She was the 'it girl', everyone wanted to be her friend, everyone admired her looks and personality.. She got insane pretty privilege, anyone was ready to anything for her, she had hugeee friend group and had actually enjoyed her school life
School was over, so was my crush on that guy and my habit of comparing myself to her. I had forgotten about her gradually.
When a few months ago I see a familiar face in my reels, and it was her. With over a million likes. She is now a big influencer, getting brand deals, being admired by everyone on the internet, and I can't help but feel little about myself. This is more severe than ever. I am constantly checking her profile, watching her and comparing myself to her again and again.
Don't get me wrong, I do not envy her or want good things to not happen to her, I am so happy for her, even reached out congratulating but I can't help but feel LESS than her.
How do I deal with this?