u/avocadoeverything_

i know this isn't a monumental discovery or anything since lots of people bounce between coping mechanisms. a big reason is that i've started working in a corporate setting and obviously adding any new scars looks really bad in the workplace, and i'm not in the mood to wear long sleeves 24/7. so because of that i feel a lot of pressure to not sh, which i guess is a good thing, but in turn i've just started drinking alone at night when normally i'd default to sh. it isn't a huge problem or anything at the moment but just wondering if anyone feels the same.

i've also struggled a lot with binge/purging in the past but for some reason have always felt like that fills a different void, whereas sh and drinking do the same for me. idk if that makes any sense. the best way i can describe it is that i binge when i'm feeling anxious/frantic whereas i mainly sh or drink when i'm feeling depressed or numb. has anyone had similar experiences?

even my parents were like "wtf isn't that an old person procedure." this is embarrassing asf and my tooth hurts so bad. and this is AFTER i've largely stopped b/ping. recover guys it's not worth it

i've genuinely gone back and forth on this a million times, and i thought i was 100% set on going but now i'm not sure anymore. it's always been my dream to study abroad in China, so I applied to PKU and got in for the fall. but now i'm starting to get last-minute nerves bc i'm afraid of getting FOMO and missing out on my senior year. i wasn't able to do junior spring like most people do because of some academic conflicts. also i would say i'm a pretty social person and also fluent in Chinese, so i don't think i'll have too much difficulty making friends.

i did do a summer abroad program in Shanghai my freshman summer, which I absolutely LOVED, but it was very different because it was essentially my school's normal curriculum on fudan's campus, so there was little to no immersion/connection with actual local students.

anyway can someone offer their actual honest thoughts bc i don't knowww and i'm so afraid of regretting it

i've genuinely gone back and forth on this a million times, and i thought i was 100% set on going but now i'm not sure anymore. it's always been my dream to study abroad in China, so I applied to PKU and got in for the fall. but now i'm starting to get last-minute nerves bc i'm afraid of getting FOMO and missing out on my senior year. i wasn't able to do junior spring like most people do because of some academic conflicts. also i would say i'm a pretty social person and also fluent in Chinese, so i don't think i'll have too much difficulty making friends.

i did do a summer abroad program in Shanghai my freshman summer, which I absolutely LOVED, but it was very different because it was essentially my school's normal curriculum on fudan's campus, so there was little to no immersion/connection with actual local students.

anyway can someone offer their actual honest thoughts bc i don't knowww and i'm so afraid of regretting it

i'm interning on a trading floor and istg the ONLY thing these ppl talk about (besides sports) is calories. like i know there's the whole joke about "finance slop bowls" but i swear it's because they're scared to eat anything but dressing-less sweetgreen for lunch. it's not only the women either, in fact it's mainly the men who are constantly complaining about how caloric things are, saying they need to lose weight, how much protein/fat/carbs are in food, etc.

the other day one of the women brought in pastries and everyone legit ate like a singular CRUMB. the girl who brought it in didn't even touch it, she just ate a few rice cakes for lunch .. and then gave the rest to me bc i'm "young and have a fast metabolism".. which isn't even true

i've worked other jobs/internships before and the diet culture has never been this intense. is this something unique to finance???? i'm going crazy. send help pls

went to my pediatrician recently for my annual physical, but also because i was having some ed-related symptoms that i wanted to check out. i swear to god you would think this woman had NEVER heard of eds. i told her i'd been eating xxx calories a day and she said "oh that's better than i expected!" she also told me i'd "definitely gain the weight back once i stopped." then later on in the physical, she asked if i ever exercised when i JUST told her five minutes ago i overexercised.

oh and to top it off, i asked if i could get a blood test just to confirm there was nothing serious going on and she said, "well you're not sick yet, if you get sick come back and we can reassess." (keep in mind i was telling her very clear symptoms of electrolyte imbalances)

like i understand not all doctors are specialized in all areas, but with the six figures y'all are paid annually i figured maybe there's a baseline level of competency. sigh.

I'm an undergrad student going into my final year, and I applied to PKU's visiting students program (not exchange) at the end of April, and I still haven't heard back? I'm starting to get concerned. My application status says "final result unreleased." I tried to email and got an automated answer, but nothing after that. Has anyone had a similar experience or know what to do?

I'm an undergrad student going into my final year, and I applied to PKU's visiting students program (not exchange) at the end of April, and I still haven't heard back? I'm starting to get concerned. My application status says "final result unreleased." I tried to email and got an automated answer, but nothing after that. Has anyone had a similar experience or know what to do?

i'm genuinely so sick of this and just want to be done. like i've lost enough weight that i'm relatively happy with the way my body looks, i'm close to my goal anyway but maybe this is the ocd side of me - i'm just not comfortable recovering UNTIL i've reached that number.

i've been restricting for the past few months and went from >!135 lbs to 110 lbs!< and i genuinely just can't be bothered to give a shit anymore. (and when i say recover i mean maintenance anyway, not like gaining back all the weight i've lost).

but i can't help thinking if i just go a LITTLE longer, imagine seeing that number on the scale!!! but in the past when i've pushed it too far, i just end up crashing out and binging it all back anyway. also i just want to enjoy the few weeks of summer i have before i have to lock in at my internship. ugh pls help

i’m not asking for advice (although it would be appreciated), i’m just annoyed asf bc why do i have to deal with these symptoms WHEN IM NOT EVEN UNDERWEIGHT. and yes i know it can happen at any point but it still feels invalidating asf like let me liveeeee.

anyway rant over, im starting my summer internship in 2 weeks so until then i will be chugging electrolytes and vitamins. wish me luck 🥰🥰