Please be completely honest with me
I really want to be an exchange student, but I’m torn and I need help deciding. I know it has disadvantages — I’d start university a year behind my peers, and that scares me. My term 1 results were also bad, and I’m worried programs won’t accept me. The truth is I procrastinate a lot, not because I don’t care, but because I’m scared. If I try my hardest and still fail, it feels worse than failing without trying. I’d rather fail from not trying than face the pain of failing after giving it my all. I don’t know if I should stay in my country and finish with my peers, or take the exchange and start uni a year later. I want to grow, but I’m afraid of making the wrong choice. What do you think I should do?