u/awanderertarot

I’ve been absolutely loving creating these and I feel like they sparked my creativity once again so as always, I hope you like them!

35F if it matters. I started running in December of last year where I somehow managed to go from maybe a few minutes of running to (very slow) 5k within 3 weeks. I took up running to deal with a very traumatic ending to a very traumatic time of my life but I had to stop for a few months because we had the most intense winter in years.

Started again at the beginning of March and again, it was quite literally a life saver but I was really looking forward to being able to run more than 5k. Running gives me a break from reality and everything that comes with healing from and processing trauma. It’s the time where I get to just exist unburdened by anything outside of the moment. I felt like 5k just doesn’t give me enough time to do that so I was looking forward to increasing my distance.

This month started off strong with a few 8-10kms but yesterday was my longest run so far! Absolutely stoked.

TW!!!

My story is difficult, but all the stories here are in their own ways. I was in a horribly abusive relationship with a very malignant and dangerous man who’s now gone from this world by his own choice. Today is the 6 month anniversary. In that short window of time I managed to completely turn my life around despite dealing with deep complicated grief. Theres still so much work to be done but I’m actively rebuilding not only my life but my sense of (new and improved) self. Sometimes it gets hard though and that’s when I look at this peaceful, handsome little face and my heart melts. They had a bond as well but I always felt like my partner would eventually use my love for my dog against me. He also ‘accidentally’ lost him on a walk once and it’s a miracle that he found his way back to me. On the day that it all went down in a horrible tragic way that affected a lot of people (and my partner DID try to take someone else with him) my dog may have saved my life. So instead of being consumed by grief I choose to celebrate Bronson and his safety today.

Currently recovering from the most horrible, traumatic time of my life. I’d say I’ve been doing fantastic so far, focused on healing, invested in my fitness and creative journey, made new friends and have been spending a lot of time taking myself on solo dates and participating in different activities. The progress I’ve made over the past 6 months is incredible, but sometimes when sadness hits I feel like it’s all for nothing or that I’m going to fail and go back to the starting point (which, oh boy, was it bleak). I know it’s all in my head but my mind does take me there sometimes which I guess is only natural. Anyway could use a toast kind strangers :)

Thank you so much for giving me the inspiration and motivation to keep creating despite any artistic blocks or life events, you are all absolutely wonderful magical people and I’m so grateful for this community 🫶🤭