u/azam85

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I am fkn 40 yrs old married man. I work from home. I am impotent , no kids. I try to help my wife when ever i can around the house and outside.

I sweep, i wash dishes and clothes, i even cook sometimes.

I do all this by my own will, i want to help out.

But, sometimes, my wife says stuff so hurtful or ignores me completely, it just shatters me inside.. i self harm by banging and hitting my head. The blood rush calms me down.

I think about my death and funeral. I think about that a lot snd i cry . I am super emotional.

I know theres something wrong with me because men should be strong but Men are also supposed to produce children and i cannot.

I just want to end it all. I am exhausted. I am sad and depressed.

I am a grown man 40 yrs old. I lost my mom and dad within 6 months last year and i cannot get over that .

I have been married five years to a very caring wife but due to my infertility i cant have children which pains my heart.

Whatever work i get into , i am at loss. I am getting broke and exhausted honestly.

I just want it to end. I want to go to my mom and dad .