u/beatingthyca

I thought gambling would make me happy. It didn’t. It made my life miserable and made me drown in debt. Lost 500k in a span of 1 month.

Now I’m 31 days sober today. In that 31 days, I was able to pay 120k of my debts out of 360k, all from my hard-work. I can now enjoy food. I can now enjoy the things I’m passionate about. I’m getting back to gym and running.

There’s just so much in life that we may miss the moment we let gambling in our lives.

May all our vocabularies forget that gambling exists and may we all be able to touch some grass in moments when we are overwhelmed with our past mistakes.

Online casino ruined my fruitful years. I’m 24m, single, have a very good paying job, and I should be enjoying life, right?

But a friend introduced Casino Plus - Color game to me 3 years ago and my life has been different. Ilang taon na ako nagtatrabaho pero wala akong napundar except sa magandang workstation. Walang ipon. Wala pang domestic and internatival travels. May 350k pa na utang due to almost 800k lost over the years.

Sana di ko nalang nalaman ‘tong sugal. I feel so lost. I feel hopeless. Sa mga kuya at ate dyan na older than me, do I still have a hope na magbago? Na magkaroon ng magandang buhay?

Kwento naman kayo d’yan how you overcame this disease. Please lang. I wanna turn 25 this august debt-free and gambling-free. 🙏

Sana magkaroon ako ng accountability buddy dito na matutulungan ako magbago at matutulungan ko rin magbago.

I no longer have access to my payroll and bank account.

My sister will handle all my finances and she’ll pay all my loans using my salary in my payroll. Fully paid credit cards and I surrendered it to her, and I don’t plan to use them anymore unless I need them for emergency.

Right now, I still have a debt of 350,000 which I plan to pay in full until September this year.

Indeed, you’ll only recover if you allow others to help you. This time I will no longer let my monster thrive in silence.

For extra protection, I did the following:

1. Self-excluded from pagcor
2. Messaged all the customer service of my previous gambling sites to ban my account and they did.
3. Installed gamban. Dati nasasayangan ako sa subscription but the cost of this is far cheaper than what I’ll lost in gambling if I don’t do this.
4. No more sim. I basically use a phone without a sim.
5. My mom and my siblings are my accountability buddies, they always remind me not to gamble.

Admit that you made a mistake and forgive yourself from your bad decisions only then you will find out you are worthy of great things in life and you CAN change.

God bless everyone!

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Problem/Goal:
Need advice kung dapat ko bang tulungan pamilya ko by taking out a ₱500,000 loan under my name para mabayaran utang nila at ma-restart negosyo nila, or kung valid bang tumanggi kahit naaawa ako.

Context:
May sarili rin akong debts pero responsible ako sa mga utang ko—lagi akong on time magbayad at wala akong overdue.

Yung ate ko may pwesto sa palengke at nagbebenta ng gulay. Nalugi yung business at ngayon sinasabi nilang halos ₱500k ang kailangan para ma-restart yung negosyo at mabayaran mga utang nila sa iba’t ibang tao at loans.

Ang problema, dahil hindi registered yung business at wala silang proof of income, gusto nila ako ang mag-loan sa lending company/app for 24 months, with around ₱150k interest. Ako yung magiging borrower at pangalan ko ang nakataya. Gusto rin nilang gawing collateral yung title ng bahay namin.

Hindi nila ako tinatantanan kahit ilang beses ko nang sinabi na uncomfortable ako. Ang biggest fear ko is: what if mag-default sila? Ako ang hahabulin legally/financially, masisira credit standing ko, at baka maapektuhan future ko rin.

Naaawa ako kasi pamilya ko sila, pero parang unfair din na ako sasalo ng risk sa problemang hindi ko naman ginawa. Bunso ako at panganay siya, kaya nahihirapan akong mag-set ng boundaries without feeling guilty.

Previous Attempts:
Sinubukan kong sabihin na uncomfortable ako mag-loan ng ganitong kalaking amount under my name.

Inexplain ko na ako ang may pinakamalaking risk if hindi mabayaran.

Hindi pa rin nila matanggap at parang pine-pressure pa rin ako dahil desperate na sila.

I don’t count my losses anymore. I already forgot about them. No longer chasing “big win” too. I’m changing my habits little by little, one day at a time. Back to reading books. Back to lifting weights. Back to grinding at work again. Change doesn’t happen overnight, it requires consistency and discipline for us to completely recover.🤍💐

Total loss this year now at 500k plus. Was very okay recovering until nagrelapse and natalo ulit ng 36k. Di ko na alam kung makakabangon pa. Sobrang hirap. Nakaself exclude na ako pero nagagawan ko pa rin paraan para makapagcash in.

Pagpray nyo ako na makarecover na please. Sobrang pagod na utak ko sa addiction na ‘to. Feel ko wala na akong control sa sarili kong utak. 😭

Please stop now. Never na mababawi yung talo. 🙏🥲