u/beepbeepclowncar

It was a dream where I was standing in front of my mirror and my face was wrong (ik it sound stupid but think of Capitan Clark from the backrooms movie) and I started peeling my lips off (like when your lips are dry) and it just kept going across my whole bottom lip. Immediately after I did that I thought “oh my god I can’t eat anything now because it’ll hurt but all we have to eat are salty things oh my god what have I done”. It was so scary and I wonder if I means anything. The day I had before I had the dream I was hanging out with my friends but idk if that has anything to do with it.

So for starters I was assaulted when I was 10 and this girl knew that when she was doing this. So this started in 6-7th grade (im going into 9th) but I met this girl and we made sex jokes and stuff but then in 7th grade she would come into my class at then end of the day when like no one was in the class besides the teacher and my other friend and she would push me against the table so I couldn’t move and touch me. At one of our chorus concerts her and two other people I know pushed me against a wall and touched me before I even said hi to anyone. In 8th grade she still sexualized me a lot and it made me uncomfortable but I never outright said I didn’t like it to her so is it my fault? Also all this happened in front of people and they never did anything so it can’t be that bad right??? Idk but since im going into highschool and will still have to see her everyday I figured I should tell someone ig. (Also during this time this other girl was lwk grooming me but I’ll probably make a separate post about that) also sorry for this being so long and worded terribly

So basically my stepmoms side of the family is catholic (especially my step grandma). My dad and step mom and sisters live in a camper in their backyard so when I have to fill up my water bottle I have to go to my step grandparents house. On my shoes there’s Kandi beads on the laces that are the trans and gay mlm flag. When I go to their house I obviously have to take off my shoes and they see the shoes. I don’t think they actually know what the flags mean but I just thought it was funny that I was soft launching coming out to them without even realizing.

In the first dream (a couple nights ago) I was at my elementary school with my middle school teachers (I’m in 8th grade). In the dream everyone else in the class had to take a normal test but I had to make a Taco Bell Baja blast pie to pass the test. I had no ingredients and no recipe, but then obviously, the pie just came into existence and all I had to do was pipe the whipped cream onto the pie. But I failed and the whipped cream was smeared and my teachers were all very mad at me and I was held back from going to high school.
In the second dream my mom grew strawberries (she loves plants) and I picked a few, took the seeds off, re-planted the seeds, and then made little mini strawberry pies. My mom found out I picked a few of the strawberries and was very mad so I shows her the pie and the fact I had replanted the seeds and she was so mad she almost killed me (I think, the dream ends there)
Sorry for the long ramble just wanted to get as much detail as I could for better inspection. :]