u/biggestjokeevertold

We had plans to see each other all day and you went back on them because it was inconvenient for you. Im not mad but you showed me that I was not a priority for you. And going forward I'm not sure how that'll effect/affect our relationship. You say you want to be with me and that im the one that fucked up but you take no responsibility for the way you treat me or men as a whole because of what your father did to you. Im not upset, it's just becoming clear where I stand with all the people I once tried so hard for. And now none of you can even keep your word to me. Thank you, for showing me how important I am to all of you. In the future, will I be important? If I am will you be important to me for all your abandon? Time will tell. Maybe ill be dead. Surely I will die. All men must die. All men will die!

So there really isn't any reason to continue to try and beat me down. You already won.

Is hard. I question every decision. I try to follow a path of virtue and honesty. But some days I feel the wieght of life and it's crushing me. Guess I better learn to get crush proof.

But learn to cope with it.

Workout.

Journal.

Talk to yourself.

Go to therepy.

Eat healthy.

Create values outside of this sadness.

And it wont defeat us.

FUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKK YESSSSSSSSS.

SPIRAL OUT.

BE GREAT.

HEAL

LOVE YOURSELF.

AND THE WORLD WILL BEGIN TO LOVE YOU BACK.

LOVE!

FUCK YES!

FUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKK YESSSSSSSSSSSS!

Or have you decided that you want to be in control yet?

I have to accept the things I cannot change. But I get to have the courage to change the things I can. And I can seek the wisdom to know the difference. And that's beautiful.

To learn from past mistakes and make amends. Sometimes its all you can do...

Leave it here. All the pain from a life that never served you. Go get the ones you fought so hard for. Dont give up. Just let that shit gooooooo. You fucked up. But you dont have to keep fucking up... let it fucking go. All that pride and ego is for your shadow and youre not that anymore. Be the light you know you are. Shine! And let it fucking gooooooo.

When I said i needed you you came...

No matter what the circumstances you came...

Now when I need you more than ever all I get is "what"...

Dont you still believe that my love for you is it?

Dont you remember all I gave to bring you back?

Don't you remember from before?

All I had done to save you?

From before...

Or are we folding under the pressure?

But I couldnt get sober. Im glad I am now, and doing all the things that I should have done back then. It's a weird feeling. Scary, but I think it will be worth it if im just patient and do what I need to do rather than what I want to do. And if I continue to be aware of how im feeling I can avoid mistakes I made in the past. Greatful for the opportunity to find my greatness. Just need to give myself some grace and take it slow. All I can do. Hail me. No. Hail you.

Means I dont have to fight anymore. And damn if that isn't freeing.

Fucking why...

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Just let me help...

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Why do you hate me so much...

Fly Peter...

Youre not welcome here anymore....

It filters through

So stop loosing and choose positivity...it works...