u/bloodypimpleonmyjaw

Can be in OCC or outside OCC

Hello everyone,

Brand new EMT from Southern California here. Recently got my license to practice in California and I’m having such a hard time landing a job. I’ve applied for caregiving roles, 911 dispatcher roles, IFT, 911, Hyperbaric, and BT roles but to no avail. Am I missing anything?

Hello everyone 18M here and I just wanted to start of by saying; I’m not here to seek sympathy or anything along that nature but merely see the insights from others and cohesively write my thoughts out whilst sharing.

Recently, about a week ago I started to feel very apathetic. I can’t laugh, I feel avoidant of everything, and most importantly I feel like I’ve amounted to so little in my life. In such regard, I feel like I haven’t LIVED. A single day in my life.

I graduated high school early this January and I’m becoming an EMT this June which is honestly a major goal of mine for this year and yeah, it’s a pretty nice accomplishment but I feel like it’s nothing big at all. And graduating highschool… I can’t recall a single experience from it. My younger brother, my younger cousin, my girlfriend they all had fun times and I can’t relate and it makes me also feel kind of isolated at times because in my eyes they were “somebodies”. I feel like a nobody.

I feel like all my life I have just been someone with eyes observing the earth. I feel boring, I feel dumb, I feel confused. I know it’s not like I’m going to die tomorrow but, I wish I knew how to talk to people when I was younger and that I had friends who had me as their first choice to do things with. Even today I feel like nobodies first choice. I feel alone for the most part even though I have people In my life and thus why it’s so cliché. I feel like much of my life has just been working and studying ever since I was 16. My parents won’t let me go out which honestly sucks sometimes because I want to “live life”. I have the money to do so but I can’t even get a day to go out.

I feel like I’m going to die with many regrets which is dumb to say since I’m so young but, I can’t help but feel like I’m a little confused on where I am in life. I know who I am, what I want to be, but, I don’t know where I am heading. I also just feel like life has been the same thing over and over again. Same people, same place, same life. No adventure what so ever. Maybe you can call it “welcome to adulthood” but I’d like to digress.

But I want to ask you guys, how can I start to ENJOY my life? I’m kind of tired of feeling like a robot lol.