u/blotonee

Lately I have been seeing people saying that Mic has a higher intelligence stat in the data books, but I haven’t been able to find any actual screenshots of the data books to confirm. I’ve only seen people on reddit or in comment sections mentioning it. Is this a real fact, or is it one of those things that someone falsely claimed and people just assumed it was true? If anyone has the databooks, could you send me some screenshots/pictures of Mic and Aizawa’s pages? I would also just like to see their other stats and fun facts that are in their databook sheets lol

Edit: I did a little bit more digging and was able to find a pdf! It seems like in the first data book, Mic was ranked as an A in intelligence and Aizawa was ranked as a B. Since then, they seem to have swapped. I am not sure why this swap happened though? Why would Aizawa suddenly get smarter while Mic got dumber when they’re both fully grown adults?

I have been estranged from my mother for about a year and a half, with a few months in there where I tried low contact. I am now no contact, and I believe it will stay that way. I turn 20 in a few months, and spent the last year in university building up debt and struggling through classes for a major that I wasn’t sure I was interested in. I realized later in the year that college was just my escape plan, and now that I had escaped my mother, it was no longer serving its purpose. I still want a degree, I think, or more like I need one to survive in the current economy, but I don’t think I’m ready to pursue such an expensive university if I’m unsure of my end goal and struggling to put in effort. I’m supposed to be transferring to community college for my associates degree, but I’ve been struggling to motivate myself to even do that. I just feel like I’m going to fail more classes from lack of effort.

Right now I am working part time and almost living paycheck to paycheck just to get through summer break. Meanwhile, my peers got funding from their parents and got to go home over the holidays. They had adults to guide them and comfort them and give them advice. I was all on my own last year, and it was very difficult. It’s difficult now. I’m living in the city I vowed to never live in, I was attending a university I vowed to never go to, and now I’m working in an industry I vowed to never work in (the food industry). All of this dissatisfaction but I have no idea what would make me satisfied. I dont even have a parental figure to ask for advice or help. I just have to figure it out by myself.

I dont think my friends fully understand. I think they get it to a degree, but I don’t think they’ve really thought about it beyond “She doesn’t like her mom.” I don’t think they realize what that does to me or how much I am missing. It hurts to hear them say that their parent comforted them when they were stressed over school work, meanwhile I am sitting in my overpriced, slightly run-down student apartment wondering why I can’t keep up with everyone around me. It hurts to hear them say they call their mom every night.

I feel so lonely and lost, and it sucks because I know that this is probably the best I have ever been. It sucks to know that this was the better option for me. It sucks to know that I am doing so much better than so many other people right now and I can’t even be grateful for it. It sucks to know that this is not an experience that many others can relate to. It sucks that I am maybe 2 slip ups from being on the streets. It sucks that I can’t even afford a doctor, and that I missed open enrollment for health insurance because I had no one to tell me that open enrollment EXISTED. It sucks so much. I’m too young to be by myself. I’m too young to not have a parent. I have nothing going for me. I have no safety net or support.

I feel like it’s been harder to engage with my hobbies over the years. Not because I lack time, but because I lack motivation. I lack motivation to do anything right now. I can’t even watch a TV show with plot. All I do is watch youtube videos and zone out to music and daydream all day. Daydreaming has been keeping me sane my whole life, and I think it’s the only thing holding me together. I think I would be very empty without it.

I constantly have people saying that I seem so nice and upbeat. I’ve had people tell me that they would have never guessed I was depressed because I was always so friendly and happy. It fucking sucks. The people pleaser in me just smiles at people and makes myself smaller for them when all I want to do is buy a car so I have somewhere to go scream. I got to scream in a car a few months ago, back when I was trying low contact with my mother. It was her husband’s car. It felt so good to just scream alone in a car and kick at the seat. I’ve never gotten that kind of emotional relief before because I’ve always cried quietly so I wouldn’t make others uncomfortable or draw attention to myself. I just want to scream sometimes. It feels like nothing is fair for me right now, which I know is a very self centered way of thinking. I feel the desire to runaway to another state or country and start over in life, but I know that’s not feasible. I don’t even have a fraction of the money I would need to do that.

This got very off topic. Sorry about that. I only have one friend I can actually talk to about this, but I don’t want to keep dumping this on him all the time. I’ve even played with the idea of emailing my professors about it, even though that would be incredibly unprofessional and they don’t even know me very well. I’m that desperate for someone to hear me and potentially understand me. I just don’t know what to do.

I am transferring to a community college in the fall and I am planning to attend part time. How many hours do you think I could reasonably work a job if doing so?