u/boymoderwife420

I would often skip showering for days due to having a demanding work schedule. Like 12 hour shifts in a warehouse for 5 days, weeks in a row sometimes. Yes I take better care of myself now. Well hygiene-wise. The fishy smell is OBVIOUS at 72 hours, max. And I'm non-op!

I swear to god, a fucking foghorn sound effect would play in my head when I pulled my underwear down 😭

I was boymoding back then and I can only hope that this wasn't a reason why I got mistaken for FTM. Not that FTMs smell this way, just based on stereotypes.

Anyways. You could argue that I'm just not used to my smell. That back then it was more like being exposed to someone else's BO. No really, it's too strong for even that. My "bad" BO pre-E was mostly rancid cooking oil, some sourdough, and a note of rotten oranges that peaks in the middle. Which was pretty average.

I don't live this way anymore, the issue was that I was a bit younger and didn't quite understand that living more comfortably can make you more productive. Or maybe I just had the sheer force of will. Yeah not anymore.

My current clean smell is flowery/milky and actually fantastic. Hibiscus and fresh milk. My old clean smell was like fresh sourdough plus a neutral to sour musk.

Thanks (or sorry) for reading.

At first, I was so happy just to have the changes from HRT. I didn't pass but I looked way more feminine than before and that was enough. The novelty has really worn off over the years. I pass much better, have more money, more life experience, and make almost 50% more. Yet my mental health is worse. I went from being fine with being a boymoder who sometimes malefails (which I know is privileged in a way) to being terrified of being clocked.

4 years ago, when I was babytrans and trying to secure employment, I had no friends, no money, recently developed chronic hypoglycemia from COVID, wrecked my dad's respect for me by being a dumbass pre-E , and literally resorted to sleeping in a tent in someone's fucking backyard at one point bc I had to hop cities for a new job. And it didn't matter because I was just so pumped, hormones are fucking magic, I can do anything. And I was basically right, my life is far better now in every way. On Saturday, I will have held that job for 4 years.

But now I feel like a pathetic excuse for what I used to be. Yes, things could absolutely have gone better, but now I just live in constant fear and shame. I'm not as productive, I'm visibly depressed and people comment on it.

Tbf she was exhausted and she just had an argument with her male coworker, so it's possible she was just thinking about him. But the odds of that are pretty fucking small bc who tf does that with a cis person?

I usually pass bc I just generally look like a woman but I know my voice doesn't pass at all over the phone and I'm taller than the avg man. So I really should have been prepared to get clocked. But it's awful when people are presumably trying to hide this from you and slip up because it reminds you that ppl can clock you, have that completely change how they see you, but keep it to themselves.

FFS all I did was pick the lock to a random door in an abandoned bunker. The don't even answer the intercom! Next thing I know they tell me to strip down basically butt booty naked under threat of death. And then they put a slave collar on me 😭. Fucking wow! If you tell Dobson the truth, which I did, they send a squad after both of you. If you repel that squad, they hunt you down like an animal. Bro wtf is wrong with these people? Just so grossly entitled. And the only way to make it stop is to go back and kick their asses.

Why tf do they even have a self-destruct button? Let's be real I have never heard of a villain's lair that doesn't have one of those things.

I also read later on that they killed members of the followers of the apocalypse. That's crazy not even the legion stooped to that level.

Title.

Okay yes you could shave the illium down but if the inlet is too wide then like what the fuck?

Like yeah a lot of them are tone deaf schizos who I used to block on sight but I think that they're right in the sense that if you have a dimorphic skeleton then hormones are damage control. A lot of dimorphism is mystified into "fat distribution" genes, yet everyhon who gets bone corrections in problem areas suddenly doesn't seem to have distribution issues in those places anymore. And insisting that your fat goes where it does because ✨️genetics✨️ and not just how soft tissue molds around the skeleton is actually pretty sneed and bioessentialist if you think about it.

The NCR just has like so many problems, so many red flags, and it looks like they're only getting worse.

The brahmin barons have too much power. They intimidate farmers into selling their land at a huge loss. Then they take advantage of people in poverty that they often created themselves! And when the tycoons finally kick the bucket, they leave yuppie nepo babies in their place. Great 🙄.

Hildern, Moore, and even Oliver have some pretty questionable motives.

They scapegoat supermutants, and discrimination against ghouls is still clearly rampant. They actually seem a few decades away from genocide at this point.

All of the other major factions are worse though. I think the only ending I would take is Yes Man, and then use Las Vegas as a bargaining chip for reform. Which might not even work, but giving them everything unconditionally is just enabling.

They're more like nazis in scrubs actually