u/brwnie7

i haven't been doing the best lately, i've been dissociating a lot (this is due dp/dr, not just bpd). all i've been eating lately is gnocchis and bread with some spreading cheese and pickles. and even those foods, who used to bring me comfort, don't bring me any kind of comfort anymore and i'm getting sick of them.

this has gotten me to not eat for hours or go to bed hungry because i don't know what to eat and absolutely nothing sounds or looks good to me, even the food my parents cook. i would order fast food but delivery is expensive... what do you guys eat when nothing, even foods that used to be your favorites, seems appetising? i know i should eat something, even if i don't really like it just to function but it seems impossible for me to do so and it has always been this way.

i need to eat something that i like or want but i can never tell what it is. it's very tiring and i'm tired of having to feed myself and think about what to eat and never knowing. it's exhausting. even my parents don't understand and this had led to us arguing because they find me difficult when i complain about being hungry but not wanting to eat what we have at home.

edit: my stepdad convinced me to order mcdonalds and said it'd be good for me to try and make a write down ideas for meals when i don't know what to eat.

i'm not very sure what flair to use here, so i chose politics. seemed fitting.

i opened tiktok this morning and found out they decided to have a useless AI chatbot too, i'm so tired of seeing AI everywhere, on every platform, on tv, on ads, outside, at some stores. it's honestly so depressing to see how companies are forcing AI on us, that we can't opt out or do much against it other than simply delete the apps. we should have a choice to not want AI on our phones. most newest phone models seem to have a built-in AI, and it certainly feels like a violation of privacy to me. AI shouldn't be able to read my messages or see my private pictures. AI shouldn't be used when marketing a product – that is false advertising. it shouldn't be used when writing a book or any kind of artistic purposes.

i'm seeing more and more channels in my country having ads on tv for products such as medication, creams, clothes or even beds, where companies don't even show the actual product and use AI to make the entirety of the advert. it's so exhausting and disgusting to see.

i don't want to live in constant fear that what i'm seeing isn't real, and second guess everything i see. (although i've always done that being online with the amount of misinformation. with AI, we really can't trust videos as silly as 'someone' doing an unboxing or a grwm).

i find it so disturbing that whenever us, as humans, find something new, we tend to use it for malicious intent. i know AI can be used for good with the right regulations, in the right fields, but people and governments are using it to spread misinformation, propaganda, deep-fakes, or trying to integrate them in war weapons. (which is absolutely insane. if you're going to destroy someone's home, murder someone, the least you could do is do it yourself instead of being miles away and using a drone or weapons that can be used from afar without needing your input).

i've talked to my psychiatrist about all this, but i'm having a hard time staying positive about the future. not only because of AI, but because of the way a lot of countries are taking a *right* turn, how racism and other discriminations are on the rise, all of the prices increasing in the past five years, the right acquiring a lot of channels, cinema companies, publishing houses, etc...

i genuinely feel so powerless. i try my best to do what i can – mostly not supporting big and problematic companies and bigoted creators, usually buy my books from independent bookstores or secondhand when i can, donate to certain causes when i'm able to, etc. (which is hard to do since i'm unemployed, but all that to say that i try to do what i think is right on my own scale).

i'm not used to sharing the things i write down on my notes app with people, so i hope this is coherent and maybe resonates with some. i wonder how people stay positive about the future... it all feels very uncertain right now. ❤️‍🩹

i opened tiktok this morning and found out they decided to have a useless AI chatbot too, i'm so tired of seeing AI everywhere, on every platform, on tv, on ads, outside, at some stores. it's honestly so depressing to see how companies are forcing AI on us, that we can't opt out or do much against it other than simply delete the apps. we should have a choice to not want AI on our phones. most newest phone models seem to have a built-in AI, and it certainly feels like a violation of privacy to me. AI shouldn't be able to read my messages or see my private pictures. AI shouldn't be used when marketing a product – that is false advertising. it shouldn't be used when writing a book or any kind of artistic purposes.

i'm seeing more and more channels in my country having ads on tv for products such as medication, creams, clothes or even beds, where companies don't even show the actual product and use AI to make the entirety of the advert. it's so exhausting and disgusting to see.

i don't want to live in constant fear that what i'm seeing isn't real, and second guess everything i see. (although i've always done that being online with the amount of misinformation. with AI, we really can't trust videos as silly as 'someone' doing an unboxing or a grwm).

i find it so disturbing that whenever us, as humans, find something new, we tend to use it for malicious intent. i know AI can be used for good with the right regulations, in the right fields, but people and governments are using it to spread misinformation, propaganda, deep-fakes, or trying to integrate them in war weapons. (which is absolutely insane. if you're going to destroy someone's home, murder someone, the least you could do is do it yourself instead of being miles away and using a drone or weapons that can be used from afar without needing your input).

i've talked to my psychiatrist about all this, but i'm having a hard time staying positive about the future. not only because of AI, but because of the way a lot of countries are taking a *right* turn, how racism and other discriminations are on the rise, all of the prices increasing in the past five years, the right acquiring a lot of channels, cinema companies, publishing houses, etc...

i genuinely feel so powerless. i try my best to do what i can – mostly not supporting big and problematic companies and bigoted creators, usually buy my books from independent bookstores or secondhand when i can, donate to certain causes when i'm able to, etc. (which is hard to do since i'm unemployed, but all that to say that i try to do what i think is right on my own scale).

i'm not used to sharing the things i write down on my notes app with people, so i hope this is coherent and maybe resonates with some. i wonder how people stay positive about the future... it all feels very uncertain right now. ❤️‍🩹

Hello! I've been looking online for some fanmade merchandise (art prints, shirts, etc) and most of it seems to be drop-shipping stuff (on Etsy). For most of the fandoms I'm in, a lot of people sell their own art as pins or prints, and sometimes clothing... I'm wondering if anyone knows any artists that have The Mentalist merch? Or if there is/was official merchandise for the show? Besides the DVDs, that is. Was the soundtrack ever released on CD? If any of you have any piece of merch (made/bought by/from someone else or by yourself), please do share! Thank you. :]

Hello! Since I'm almost done with season seven for the first time, I've been feeling a bit sad about the show being over...

And so I thought about rewatching some episodes over the next few weeks...

I've made a list of my favorite episodes during this first watch, which includes: Red Badge [2x03], Code Red [2x16], Strawberries and Cream [3x23&24], Ruby Slippers [4x21], Devil's Cherry [5x02], My Blue Heaven [6x09], Violets [6x16], Blue Bird [6x22], and more! But those are my main favorites. :]

What are some of the episodes you rewatch the most? The ones you rewatch when you miss the show and its characters?

Hello, all! New DC(U) fan, here.

I have been thinking about watching the CW shows "Superman & Lois" and "Supergirl" for a few weeks now...

I've read that they take place in the Arrowverse that has multiple shows be interconnected – however, my only interest is in these two shows only. I was wondering if I would be okay only watching these on their own or if it was really necessary to watch the other Arrowverse show to fully understand their stories? I saw that Supergirl had a few crossover episodes with other shows – would it be okay to watch only Supergirl and the crossover episodes only? (Is there some guide for Supergirl and her crossover episodes?)

I don't know much about superheroes in the D.C. universe, honestly (except for the current DCU, really), so that's why I'm asking for guidance! Thank you. :]

Hello, all! New DC(U) fan, here.

Last summer, I finally hopped on the train with James Gunn's Superman! Since then, I've only watched every project from the DCU (The Suicide Squad, Peacemaker, Creature Commandos & Superman) and the animated show "My Adventures with Superman"! I'm of course, very excited for Supergirl's movie and Lanterns coming out this summer.

My first introduction to Superman was as a kid, with the show "The New Adventures of Superman", which I might revisit someday. But for now, I've been thinking about watching the CW shows "Superman & Lois" and "Supergirl".

I've read they take place in the Arrowverse that has multiple shows be interconnected – however, my only interest is in these two shows only. I was wondering if I would be okay only watching these on their own or if it was really necessary to watch the other Arrowverse show to fully understand their stories? I saw that Supergirl had a few crossover episodes with other shows – would it be okay to watch only Supergirl and the crossover episodes only? (Is there some guide for Supergirl and her crossover episodes?)

I don't know much about superheroes in the D.C. universe, honestly so that's why I'm asking for guidance! Thank you. :] Would also love to hear your thoughts (without spoilers) on these shows!

Hello! I've been loving the show for weeks and only tonight finally made it to Blue Bird [6x22]. It was such a fun episode that made me laugh, tear up a little and smile. Some scenes reminded me of the banter Jane and Lisbon had in earlier seasons. I'm very excited to see where the show goes from here, although I'm not ready to finish it at all and already planning to rewatch Blue Bird a little later...

There is something so special about Jane and Lisbon's partnership. I was wondering if any of you here were readers? Specifically romance readers, maybe? I'm usually not a big fan of slow burns or F/M fiction, but Jane and Lisbon's partnership is so well written that it makes me want to read something similar once I'm done with the show. I already have a few fanfictions saved for later, but you can recommend more down below!

I'm mostly asking for physical books, not fanfiction. I'm not super sure what I'm looking for except that I want to read something where the characters have a similar dynamic that Lisbon and Jane have and that build a relationship over the course of the book, with obstacles on the way, etc. Preferably a book where the characters aren't in their teenage years or early twenties, as I think it played in how much I loved Jane and Lisbon's relationship. I know this is vague, so if you need any specifics, put them in the comments!

TLDR: Looking for book recommendations that have characters similar to Jane and Lisbon and their dynamic, a slow burn romance. Fanfiction recommendations are also very much welcomed! :]

Hello! I'm not sure how to title this post but I'm watching season six for the first time and I just finished episode 18, Forest Green. By this episode, Lisbon and Pike seem to have been dating for some time. However, I feel like as a viewer there isn't much development to their relationship that is shown. We know Lisbon spends time at his place and that they go out for dinner often, but it feels like there is no emotional connection between these two? I'm not sure how to explain.

Pike asking Lisbon to move to D.C. with him feels so sudden. I guess I don't have the full picture since I haven't watched the rest of this season yet, but I'm wondering if their relationship wasn't rushed for the sole purpose of getting Jane and Lisbon to realize and act on their feelings for each other? From what we know of Lisbon, she hasn't dated a lot in her life. She was engaged once, probably in her early twenties, and broke it off, dated a guy but broke up because he bit his nails a lot (I can't recall which episode) and had a one night stand with Mashburn years ago.

I'm assuming that she may have gone on dates during the 2 years timeskip that never got anywhere serious. My question is, between the first time we see Pike and the night he asks Lisbon to move to D.C. with him, how long has it been?

I'm not able to fully enjoy this arc because of how rushed it feels and how little we actually know about Lisbon and Pike's relationship other than the fact that he's planning a future with Lisbon and is very straight forward and honest compared to Jane who can't even face his true feelings for Lisbon. (He had his reasons, but I'd hope he'd act on it as soon as he got back to the U.S., or at least that they'd talk about where they were in their coworker-ship / more than a friendship.)

(Pedro Pascal is very charming in this role. :])

Hi! I watched “White as the Driven Snow” for the first time today, and I can't believe this is an actual episode. This whole storyline made no sense to me...

At first, when we found out the ex-CBI team's phones were bugged, I thought it could have something to do with The Blake Association. Some old members that held a grudge against the team for finding out about it and arresting most members, members that for some reason had something against Ardiles, too. I was interested.

But then we find out that Haibach is the prime suspect and my interest dropped. I would've been okay if the suspect was Volker – I feel like that storyline was rushed and it could've been interested to see more of him. But Haibach? It's hard for me to believe that a miserable man like him is capable of hacking phones, abducting Ardiles and killing him... (even with the help of his sister.) I can't even recall Ardiles having anything to do with Haibach's arrest back when he got caught for photographing underage girls.

When this plotline started, it also felt like there was no sense of urgency. And that bothered me a lot! I was excited to see Van Pelt and Rigsby some more, as I missed them, but I'm disappointed that it was ruined by all of this...

And I'm annoyed at the writers for always using Grace as a victim – she dates criminals, almost gets killed, gets kidnapped and almost gets killed... It's tiring. I also don't understand how she didn't hear Haibach entering her hotel room? She wasn't asleep then, she had just gotten off a phone call with Rigsby.

Another thing that I find hard to believe is Rigsby living with being shot two times – to the chest, and managing to disarm Hazel and kill Haibach.

He shouldn't be able to get up and walk, right? For a moment, I thought he was wearing a vest underneath his shirt or that somehow, he was faking being shot.

I think they could've done something much more interesting with another suspect and something to advance the story, too. I've been enjoying season six, but I find some of the cases boring and I'm kind of sad that we didn't find out more about TBA. I'm even more sad that LaRoche died for this miserable plot.

I know this episode is hated by many, and I just needed to rant a little about it. Thanks for reading. :]

(Giving Haibach a “reason/explanation” for being into underage girls (being sexually abused by his father as a child) was useless. I hate that character. I hate when that explanation is given to pedophiles in shows as if it changed anything about the character and how they're perceived. Suddenly knowing this doesn't make me feel any kind of sympathy. Rant over!)

Hello! I watched “Black Helicopters” for the first time today, and I'm kind of disappointed in the way they handled J.J LaRoche's death.

I can understand if the actor didn't have time to shoot a full or multiple episodes, but killing him in the last minute of the episode is such a bad move. As the audience, we don't have time to register what happened. It happens far too quickly and feels unnecessary. I'm also wondering why Rigsby isn't carrying a gun? Sure, he isn't part of law enforcement anymore, but going to an abandoned warehouse in the middle of the night... After a decade of working at CBI, you'd think the characters would know that danger is everywhere. (And I know the writers probably have a plan but killing a character like LaRoche, this way, so rushed, ten seconds before the credits roll, it feels mean.)

I really liked him. I'm now wondering if there will be mentions of him in the next episode or if they won't acknowledge it so much... (often happens in shows when a beloved character dies. :c) The least the writers could do is have Jane acknowledge his death, or something. I really hope this is worth it, or else they would've killed him for no reason. And I know, he's a side character, but still... He had a full backstory fleshed out which doesn't happen often with side characters, I feel like. I'm so disappointed and sad.

I also hope Rigsby and Van Pelt took care of his dog. Another thing – can someone tell me if Jane ever figures out what was in the tupperware? Lisbon knows, and she's the only one on the team who knows about it. (For those who may not remember, LaRoche cut the tongue of the man who raped and killed his mother and kept it in a tupperware, hidden in a safe.)

Hello! I've been having a few thoughts and questions since watching S6 E8, the one where Patrick finally kills McAllister.

One of them being – why hasn't any of R.J.'s friends/disciples been on the hunt for Jane after he killed him? I know the show probably wanted to be completely done with this arc, but I find it surprising that no one from R.J.'s cult (it is a cult, to me), has sent threats or anything of the sort to Jane. Red John had a huge following, from all over the country. I'm guessing since TBA has been found (I so badly wish they expanded on that, but oh, well) most people who worked in law enforcement and for R.J. also got arrested. But what about the other ones? The ones who work everyday jobs or in hiding?

I'm only on S6 E10, and I kind of hope that there are some kind of nods to Red John. Not nods, it isn't the right term – what I mean is, some sort of consequences in Patrick's psyche from killing a man, if that makes sense? Although he's suffered enough.

Hi! This is specifically a question for those who said they managed to guess Red John's identity before season six / late season five and who weren't spoiled beforehand.

I've seen a few people here say that they knew his identity before the list was revealed and before season six, which gives us a lot of clues. And all I'm asking is, how? From what I can understand, the writers themselves didn't know who R.J. was going to be at least before/mid season five. So they didn't even leave any important clues in the early seasons. The clues on his identity only start by late season five and season six. The only thing we know before then is that he and Jane shook hands.

I already know who R.J. is even if this is my first watch, but that's because I was spoiled by my parents a few years back when they watched the show themselves. Thankfully, this doesn't take away my enjoyment for the show! I only know who he is, not how his reveal went down yet (almost there, though!) And even if you do know who he is, I feel it doesn't take away much from the show. What's interesting is the lengths Jane will go to catch him and the lengths the team will go for Jane to help him. And of course, the dynamics between all the characters is what I love the most.

So, how did you guess? Interested in hearing your answers. :]