u/cabsquirrel

I'm feeling really sad tonight idk how I could be this far from the woman I love for 5 years it's so hard to think i will only get 10vist 70days out 1,825 to actually get too hold her im just in tears im not sure how Im going to do it phone calls seems so much more dull then when we're together things are just different nothing is the same when I'm with out her how do I deal with this or how can I be ok

So i recently have been playing with my head set day two of using it it won't turn off I turn it off and in seconds it turns it self back on and it's not connected to anything I'm so lost

I recently got out of a relationship of 7 years it ended really badly she broke my heart she was the love of my life at least I felt at the time but fast forward save you guys the details I found myself in a new relationship and happy for the most part but I still find myself missing that other person or maybe kinda just sad of the thought of what that person used be and I missed that part of them and sometimes I find myself missing the old times when we're happy little reminders happens like songs or places we whent together just things that remind me of these really happy moments that we had together or specific way she treated me and the new person doesn't but of course what the new person does is a lot better in so many ways wouldn't trade it for the world but anyways I'm just wonder if the small things the little reminders if that ever goes away or is it just kind of something that has to be with me forever because a very very small part of me will always love that person?

After playing a couple hours last night i have came to love this new hammy bug the physics and Camera we get from the new Heroes bike is exactly what we needed they need to fix his camera a little but I like the grater fov keep all the physics of it I'm not getting stuck on doorways I'm not getting stuck on stairways i'm hardly getting stuck on anything it's what I've been asking for since overWatch 2 came out i'm hitting wall jumps like I've never hit before and I'm getting so much air time just from getting booped into walls and things I'm able to rebound bounce off of things in midair switch Direction faster mid fire ball this is a godsend this is what we've all been waiting for and asking for him and they secretly accidentally gave it to us like I am so down for this this needs to be a permanent thing for hamster please fix the camera though but low-key the physics were getting from the new Heroes bike is what I've been wanting for forever been ranting and raving about it for years it feels so much more like classic OverWatch even better everything just feels so smooth I'm not getting hung up on anything like we need to Partition to keep the physics of her bike I can't express how much good this brings to our boy Hammy

I have recently found myself in love with the most amazing girl but she lives 1500 miles away I was just curious if anyone else here has tried out a enabot so I could fallow her around her appointment or be waiting at the door when she comes home to greet her I was wondering if there worth it can I connect to it even thogh I'm not in the same state or if it just not worth it wondering every one option

I'm beyond heartbroken I met my wife when I was 19 she has been my constant companion for 7 years we've never spent time apart we worked together we play together we did everything together we liked everything the same the same kind of food the same kind of movies we would play couch co-op games together she was literally everything to me and she still is i can't go to the movies without seeing a movie that I would want to go see with her we used to watch every horror movie together and want to share it with her just brakes me where I see a little stuffy and I just want to get it for her just to see her little smile brought me so much joy people say time will make it easier but it's not it's getting worse I have to watch her be happy with somebody else it's not fair that he gets the one thing that I want in this entire world when I'm so f****** miserable i hate breathing feels like I'm breathing in glass every time I'm so tired all the time because breathing is such a struggle i regret every day of my life all the mistakes that I made and I don't know how to live with myself i try to move on but nothing's the same there's a constant hole in me that's just missing my best friend i miss doing all the things that we did together and now I'm alone with nothing she left 3 months after our daughter was born and all we ever wanted was that little girl we were supposed to raise her together I took care of her and I brought her back to life from sepsis and overweight i was her constant care provider and I got her better and I got her healthy and I got her skinny what reason did I waste my life getting her better so she could go off and be somebody else's housewife when she would never even take care of me because she was so sick now I'm sitting here trying to figure out how to be okay with all the little things we didn't get to do yet like finish our Lego set or play a board game just one more time nothing is fun anymore everything I get excited about I want to share with her I don't know how I could ever find somebody else that has literally everything in common with me that would get me better than I got myself and as the days go on I just wish more and more that I just wouldn't wake up because I know this sounds stupid but I don't think this life is worth living without her she's my best friend all the little things all of or inside jokes no one's ever going to get them no one's ever going to sit with me and giggle at SpongeBob sing songs in the car to our favorite music play video games do our cute little hand puppets be a teammate with me at work i literally have to go to work and think about all the things she used to do to help me now it's just me I literally feel like the color of my world is gone and I don't know how to go on without her I think about her every second of my life from the second I wake up to the second I fall asleep I just don't want to be here i can't sleep anymore I can't eat I've lost 10 lbs just because I can't stomach it anymore i don't know how supposed to let go of my best friend no matter what was happening with me I feel like the world was okay when she was by my side I had an undiagnosed bipolar so I'm sure there were times that I wasn't fair and then breaks me in so many I wish I was a better husband I wish I got help sooner but I didn't now everything's ruined i pray to God everyday that I could just wake up from this nightmare just want to go back and have a second chance if I had one wish I would wish for her not endless money not endless anything it would be her i miss her so much that I can't breathe this is my best friend and I don't think that's ever going to change and I really don't feel like this life is worth living if I'm in this much pain every day of my life I really can't get out of bed I constantly feel like hurting myself I don't want to be here I miss my little girl she was my everything my best friend my partner my Teammate my lover