u/chloeclarinet

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VERSE 1

I grieve lives that never happened
like they’re buried in the yard

every plan I make for us
falls apart before it starts

Some days I wanna warn you
before you sink in any deeper

tell you I’m still learning how to carry myself
let alone somebody else

PRE-CHORUS

You keep patching up the cracks
pretending they don’t spread

talking like tomorrow’s gonna
fix what’s in my head

CHORUS

You’ll spend your whole life
waiting for me to get better

while I hate myself
for letting you believe I ever could

You’ll spend your whole life
waiting for me to get better

and I’ll spend mine trying not to become
another thing you’ll lose

VERSE 2

I turned every good night
into something we had to survive

Convince you to leave where you were
then need you back by my side

Maybe last July I'd go with you
you wouldn't have to ask

Now I'm begging you to stay
but refusing to go out

Building our whole life
around what I'm afraid about

PRE-CHORUS

You keep hanging pictures
over water stains

acting like a fresh coat of paint
can make me okay

CHORUS

You’ll spend your whole life
waiting for me to get better

the girl you think exists
Keeps slipping out of my hands

You’ll spend your whole life
waiting for me to get better

and I’ll spend mine disappointing you
then hating myself for it

BRIDGE

I wish you weren’t so good
at seeing the best in me

when I’m not sure she’s underneath

Sometimes I think the cruelest thing you’ve done
was never giving up

Because every time I hit the bottom
you’re still standing there

looking past the wreckage
like there’s something left to salvage

FINAL CHORUS

You’ll spend your whole life
waiting for me to get better

like there’s some version of me
hiding underneath all this

You’ll spend your whole life
waiting for me to get better

while I keep looking for her too

Searching every memory
for some proof she made it through

You’ll spend your whole life
waiting for me to get better

while I keep looking for her too