I've tried quite a few free Korean learning apps and I didn't find them helpful in anything more than learning how to read and basic words. I'm ready to pay, maybe not monthly but for a lifetime subscription. I was going to buy the subscription on bunpo but 36 gbp is a bit much
Right now, my whole family is on holiday and everyone is sharing rooms with someone else. I'm sleeping in the same bed as my mum. I've been struggling with sleep because of my anxiety (and daily life in general) and, when she came to lie down for the night, I was having another big wave of anxiety and crying. So I told her I've been feeling on edge every day and we talked for hours. At first, she tried to offer solutions, even offered to pay for expensive therapy. She got upset when I said I feel bad when she pays for stuff and started crying too. I've agreed to at least go do a blood test and maybe try to speak to someone at the hospital for now and then we'll see. I struggle with telling anyone about my problems and wouldn't have told her unless she caught me in the moment.
I've been clean for a couple of months but I'm getting really close again. The only reasons I quit were going to the beach this summer and my bf. But I managed to get a swimming costume that will cover some parts of my body I could do it on and I honestly feel like my bf doesn't want to deal with my stuff anymore. I keep having anxiety attacks, please someone tell me why else I shouldn't do it
Writing this mid anxiety attack, I apologise. When I'm alone for too long(even a day) this overwhelming feeling kicks in and my brain starts romanticising sh and everything related to it. I have a dark, dare I say, aesthetic outside of this feeling as well but sometimes, like right now, I just start spiralling. It's impossible to stop because I am not exactly sure why it's happening either. It's like I want to express myself in gorey ways. I've never seen anything like this listed in a "reasons for self harm" website. I just want to put this big artistic feeling on my skin